LINZ SAID SO!!!

hahhahahaa… i bought 3 books!!! me happy!! hahhahahaa… i laughed like a fucken shiet!! lolz… gonna spend ma time for a while in reading!! heheheee…. i just finished one book for 3 hours!! that thick book! me happy!!!! that book made me laugh!!! i’m gonna start to read other book later!

what else? wakakakkaakkakaa….. sigh cant describe how i feel! i’m so fucken happy! hahahahahhahahahahahaa…. i cant wait, i cant wait!! i’m smiling and laughing all the time. SMILEEEEEEEE is always on my face!

uuummmm … 2 days ago, BIG W called me for chit chat, was kinda like interview thingy. before that, another company called me. i think this friday, i’ll go around for a bit and apply some jobs! hohoho… how exciting, job hunting!!!

so busy these days!!!! less sleep until these days!!! i’m so fucken tired!!! i hope everythings done by next week. YAY!!!! but i’m cool with it!! since i’m so happy!!! but by changing ma mind so many times and had a good thought last nite, after all i could make one big decision that more or less can change my life forever!! hahahaha…. hard work hard work for upcoming 6 months!!!! then later i’ll be happy for ma entire life! i cant wait!! hahahhahahaa…. keep ma fingers crossed!! wink!!!

well, i guess, i’m back to the person i used to back. i’m back to ma track!! my way!!! THANK YOU, LORD!!! THANK YOU FOR SAYKOJI!! THANKS FOR REMINDING ME ABOUT LORD!! THANK YOU GOD FOR REMINDING ME THRU THEM!!! at the moment, i just wanna spend my time with GOD! i think i left HIM too long until i lost my way of life!! and i hope what i have done during this year, i’ll get pay off next year! i hope GOD will help me!! I will pray, always!!! I will always remember that PHILLIPIANS!! i will remember that prayer!! i will remember that part!! 6 months to go!! i hope before 6 months, i would be able to get da good news!!! hehehehhehehee….

sigh!!! so excited!! but whether bad or good news!! i dun give a fcuk!!! hahahahahahahahaa …. i’m so happy!! i cant wait … i cant wait … i cant wait ….

dad was thinkin to buy me another car!! hahahahahahaa… fucken shiet…. hohohoho …. another new car for me!! hell yeah!! but i told him no need to!! jus waste of money!!!

these days were too busy meetin that guy!! wakkakakakakaa… jus business problem and i really need his help for reviewing things!!! funni looks!!! today i look so dumbass till i was so fucken couldnt talk n think properly, cuz i was confused with his question tho he talks ma own language!! hahahahahhahahaaa…. he jus lauged at me!!! wakkakakakakakakakaaa… talkin on da phone too much!!! i hav to prepare many things!! maybe i just cant talk ma own language anymore. maybe i just need sleeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp hours!!! damned!!! but next week, i can sleep peacefully!!! everythings done!! well, just see next year!!! i cant wait!!!

mmmm.. what else? today we met KB and he said, "i think we can win!!! we still have chance and hope!!". oh great!!!! HAHAHHAHAAA… i felt so relief after i heard his words!!!

cool mannnnnnnnnnnnn!!! hahahhahahahahahhahahahahahaa ….

last week one of foreign companies in jakarta replied ma job application and asked me to do da interview!! PUAHAHAHHAAA.. FUCKEN SHIET!!!

so many stories these days!!! i dun really remember though!!! but i’m cool!!! im sure my hard work will be paid off soon!!! i’m so tired fucken these days!!! i dont sleep properly!! i think and work so hard!! fucken shiet!!!! only slept a few hours, got up and gone … BUT AS EVERYONE SAYS .. I’M TOUGH!!!! when i wanna do things, i dont give a shiet no more, i will do it although i have to die!!! wakkakakakaa….

look at me baby!!! i’m fine!! i look so fine!!! i look happier than before. oh oh oh oh ..

wakkakakakakkaa…. keep thinkin about da past, ma old skool days!! wakkakaaa but me so happy!! krazeeeeee .. i cant wait .. i cant wait … i cant wait …. i cant wait!! i cant wait!! wakkakakakaa … so so so so fucken excited!! kekekkee … i cant tell .. i cant tell … i cant tell … i’m smiling … i’m smiling!! hahahahahhahahahahahhaa… fucken shiet!!!  i’m laughin … i’m laughing!! i love u, lord!!! i miss u, lord!! i thank you lord for today for making me so happy n easy!! thanks for your way to find a final decision for my life!!

Philippians 4:13

¹³ I can do all things through Christ^[a] who strengthens me.

³ I thank my God upon every remembrance of you, ⁴ always in every prayer of mine making request for you all with joy, ⁵ for your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now, ⁶ being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ; ⁷ just as it is right for me to think this of you all, because I have you in my heart, inasmuch as both in my chains and in the defense and confirmation of the gospel, you all are partakers with me of grace. ⁸ For God is my witness, how greatly I long for you all with the affection of Jesus Christ.
⁹ And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in knowledge and all discernment, ¹⁰ that you may approve the things that are excellent, that you may be sincere and without offense till the day of Christ, ¹¹ being filled with the fruits of righteousness which are by Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.

*****TO MA FAMILY WHO STILL LOVE ME!! I KNOW I DUN STAY AT HOME MUCH!!! AAARRGG!!!!

DAD, SORRY, I WASNT REALLY THERE!!! i’m sorry!!!
MOM, SORRY, I KNOW I’M HARDLY TO GO BACK HOME!!! BUT NEVA MEANT TO … SORRY HURTIN U TOO MUCH!!! SORRY, FOR BEIN SO NAUGHTY!!! SORRY, BEIN A BAD PERSON!! I FEEL REGRET TIL NOW!!!!!!! "I KNOW I SHOULDNT DO THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!" FORGIVE ME!!! BUT NOW I KNOW … I KNOW!!!! THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME NO MATTER HOW BAD I AM!!!

BUT BOTH OF U ARE STILL IN MA HEART, HERE .. WITH ME … I LOVE YOU, FOLKS!!!

***** LORD!!! THANK YOU FOR STAYING WITH ME ALL THE TIME, THRU BAD AND GOOD TIMES!!! I KNOW I CANT REPAY YOU BACK!! THANK YOU FOR GIVIN AND SHOWIN ME A WAY HOW TO SURVIVE IN THIS HARD LIFE!! PLEASE KEEP ME AWARE FROM THOSE EVILS!! I WONT GIVE UP!!! I WILL STILL ALIVE!!!! I WILL STILL SURVIVE!!! I STILL WANNA GO TO HEAVEN!! THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THIS BLESS!!! THIS LUCK!!! AND EVERYTHING U HAVE GIVEN TO ME!! MY TALENT AND EVERYTHING!!! I KNOW LIFE ISNT ALWAYS ABOUT SMOOTH, I KNOW … BUT IT TEACHES ME HOW TO SURVIVE WITH OR WITHOUT ANYONE!!! I LOVE YOU, LORD!!! I LOVE YOU SO BADLY!!! I AM SORRY FOR LEAVING YOU FOR A WHILE! I’M SORRY FOR FORGETTING YOU FOR A WHILE!! I’M SORRY GOD!! I’M SORRY LORD!!! I’M SORRY I WAS FORGOT EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD FOR SOMETHING I SHOULDNT CHERISH TOO MUCH!! WHY AM I ALWAYS REALIZE THAT YOU ARE THERE AFTER I DROP INTO THE DEEP CLIFF? WHY LORD? WHY CANT I REMEMBER YOU EVERY WHERE I GO? WHY AM I LOOKIN FOR YOU WHEN I HAVE NO WHERE TO RUN NO WHERE? FORGIVE ME GOD!! BUT SINCE TODAY, AFTER I’M WRITING ALL OF THIS, I PROMISE, I’LL BE THERE … I WILL!!! I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU!!!! I’LL COME BACK TO MA WAY AND YOUR WAY!!! WHY AM I ALWAYS MAKING MISTAKES TO YOU, LORD? DONT LEAVE ME, GOD!! EVER!!!

***** FRIENDS, THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING BE THERE WITH ME THRU THICK N THIN!!! I DONT KNOW HOW TO SAY THANKS TO YOU GUYS!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! I’M GLAD THAT ALL OF U STILL THERE FOR ME!!! I’M SORRY IF I HAVE DONE SO MUCH MISTAKES!!!

***** TO DAT SUM1 SPECIAL -0921313- (U KNOW WHO U ARE!!!) EVERYTHING WAS SO INSANE!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING, CHEERIN ME UP!!! GIVIN ME YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON!!! TAUGHT ME HOW TO BE STRONG!! TAUGHT ME EVERYTHING!!! I LOVE YOU!! HAHAHAHHAAA …. BELIEVE IT OR NOT!!! DANK!!!! I LOVE SO MUCH IT HURTS!!!! FOREVER!!!! I’M BACK BABY!! WAKAKKAKAKAA…. ME LUV U INSANELY!!! MISS THOSE DAYS WHEN WE ROCKED DA WORLD (wish i can turn back da time)!! YOU’RE DA GREATEST!!! I MISS U TOO!! i miss chu .. i miss chu … i luv u .. i luv u .. *WINK* PEACE YO!!! LET’S GO BEAT PPL!! HAHAHA…. REMEMBER THIS OK, "0921313" … ???? <<<< yknow what i mean rite?

se7en, damn!!!! i miss chu, babe!!! wakakkakaa… i miss those days .. when we were wagging around, playing winning eleven, havin lunch/dinner, how u bullied me, stayed ova nite n watching soccer, being insane n funni!!! hahahhaa…. i miss those days!!! and you are so fucken special for me!! forever mannnnnn!!!!

PEANUTS 1997-2005, wakkakakaa…. 8 years gone by!!! but same old me!!! same old u!! still luv u so much it hurts!! cant forget u!!! YOU’RE DA BEST!!! i miss those days too!! hahahahhahahahahaa…. though we went seperate ways .. well, mannnnnnnnn … still cant you out of ma mind!! believe or not, but …. yes… thats da fact!! THIS IS FOR YOU:

i love I will survive song

esp. when i live without u by myself

after so many nites listening to i will survive song

i think i was wrong, please come back dong!!

you came from outer space

with astronout clothes, you made me impressed

you have that look stupid and i look stupid too

we were compatible

but you gone, walk out the door

left me who had been learning how to drill!! (haha)

without say permission, no say cya and bye bye

i became crumble losing stumble (lolz)

yes, i know, i will not survive

without u on my seide, i wont stay light

and i dont have a lot to live, a lot to give

i will not survive

yeah, yeah

i tried to be strong

cheering up myself with eating a lot

i spent so many night in any kind of restaurant

it doesnt work

if you see me with nobody new

coz im still that little person

still in love wit u, u know

i tried to find someone to replace u

but …..

@ project pop

SORRY FOR ALL I HAVE BEEN DONE!! I’M NOT THAT PERFECT PERSON BUT I’M STILL WANNA MAKE IT UP!

@THANKS TO SAYKOJI, FOR DA INSPIRATION!!! LOVE YA, MATE!!!

"You know I really
like it these days kalo mereka pengen nyela sesuatu dengan kayak pengen nunjukin
itu tuh gak ada artinya "apa sih"… funny yourself man… It’s like, SO WHAT
GITU LOH?! Jadi lo kayak hip-hop blink-bliNk….. So What Gitu Loh?"

PS: to all ma mates in JKT!! I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! WAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKAAA I’M SO HAPPY THAT AM GONNA SEE YA GUYS AGAIN ASAP!!!! ANJRIT!! I CANT WAIT .. I CANT WAIT!!!!!

me back me back!! ok laaaaaaa … wakakkaaa .. recently i downloaded too much indo songs, too much listening indo songs!! I MISS INDO, BABY!!! WAKKAKAAA.. I’LL BE BACK HOME SOON!!! WINK WINK!!! I WONDER WHY, SO MANY BROKEN HEARTED SONGS THESE DAYS INCLUDING INDO SONGS!! WHAT DA FUCK MANNNNN!!! ESP. GLENN!! OH MA FUCKEN GOD!!! ok, he is always like that!! everyone knows his life story deeeeeeeee … no wonder he always composes that kind of songs!!! i missed soooooo fucken many indo movies!! wakkakaa… taekkkkkkkkk!!! I MISS INDO!! I MISS JKT!! I MISS ALL MA MATES!! I MISS ALL MA BABES!!! I MISS ALL MA THINGY!! I MISS DA FUCKEN FOOD!! I MISS PETERPAN, SHEILA ON 7, DEWA, GLENN, TANGGA, PROJECT POP, SINETRON INDO YG SO FUCKEN SHIETS, INDO SLANGS (SO WHAT GITU LOH!!?), THOSE FUCKEN FOOD COURTS, MALLS, CINEMAS, TRAFFIC JAMS, JAGUNG BAKAR, BANDUNG, PUNCAK, DUFAN, AND SO SO SO SO DAMN!!! EVERYTHING!!! WAKKAKAA.. i’m goin! i’m goin!! I DUN GIVE A FUCK TO OTHER THINGS!!!! AIYOOOOOOOOOOOO .. MPE SEGETO NYAAAAAAAA DEEEE .. SO WHAT GETO LOH!!? WAKKAKAKAKAA … norak abessssssssssss dah gueeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! LIFE IS SO FUCKEN FUN!! FREE AS A HELL!!! ME BACK ME BACK!!! ALL PROJECT POP’S SONGS .. oh my god!! made me laughed like a shiet .. wakakakkaka … all those old skool parodies!! gilekkkkkkkkkk … aaawwwww!! 4 years mannnnn!!! 4 years been livin here and i miss so fucken indo!! dont u know that??? born n grew up there for 20 years? geez!!! cant believe it!! i cant believe i survived here without anyone!! wakkakakakakakakkaa ….. yeah, livin here is good but hell ya .. JKT is da best!! wakakakkakaa .. MIE TEK2 .. TUKANG SOMAY YG LEWAT DI DPN RUMAH, RUJAK, TUKANG MARTABAK, TUKANG BAKSO!! ANJRIT!!!!!! i miss udara sumpeknye, panasnye, sendal jepit, dimana2 FOOD!! puahahahhaaa…. plus ama org2 yg norak!! wakakakaa…  I LOVE IT!!!! kemane2 tinggal pake sopir!! puahahahhahahaa… so what gitu loh? ada pembokat .. wakkakakaa.. gak usa cape2 .. ada yg ngurusin!! gilekkkkkkkk … AYOOOOOOOOOOO PULANK KAMPUNG!!! I MISS BATAGOR!! SIAL!!! I MISS KEDONDONG, JAMBU, MANGGA JELEK, SALAK, DUKU, LONTAR, SAWO, WAKAKAKKAKAA.. BLIND MAN!!! I MISS INDO LANGUAGE!! HARDLY TO TALK INDO THESE A FEW YEARS!!! I miss all those shiet Indo TV and Radio Stations!! wakkakakaa .. ALL OF EM SO FUCKEN ROCK!!!!!! I MISS PIM! I MISS PS!!! I MISS KGM!! GILAKKKK .. I MISS SUNTER DEH!! DANAU NYE YG DODOLS!!! JALAN TOL NYE!! WAKKAKAA … najong!! I MISS ATMAJAYA dgn somay nye yg enak abessssssss, gak tauk maseh ada pa kaga!!!

thank you to all ma friends (you know who you are) who have been there for me, cheering and supporting me all the way thru! thank you wont enuff but i am really appreciated, indeed!!! hahahaa … i’m on ma stage 4 now!! another stage to go … and i’ll be back again!!! next month!! just wait for me… hehehehehee ….

my house is so fucken clean … very very very nice .. my mom did it! wakakakkakaa… very very very different. at the moment, i just wanna be alone and spend more time with my mom!! mom, i love you sooooooooooooooo muuuuucccccchhhhhh!! thanks for always be there for meeeeeeeee … and my dad too!!! sob sob .. am gonna cry!!! am gonna miss u guys!!!

mmm .. finally, i decided not to go back to indo for a while!! i would love to, but too many things happened here … i might postpone it till next year, around march. hahahaha … i cant leave melb cuz too many things to do … what else?

so far so good, heh? wakakkakakakakaaa …. i’m krazee!! lolz .. i shouldnt be this happy but i got exam, damn hell!!!! wakakkakakaaa… final!! only one stupid exam!!! ON TUESDAY 22ND!! after that? puahahhahahahahahhahahahahahhaa…. free, baby!!! well, not realli!

i lost ma local driving license!! puahahaa… but finally i found it!! well, it was on another wallet. kekekkee… krazee me!!

2moro am gonna cut ma hair!! so fucken annoyin … goin to wesley tomoro. he just came back from china, shanghai this thursday. am gonna dye ma hair again i think, its been a long long time since the last time i dye ma hair. a year? wakakakkakakakaa…. i’ll be back mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn to the person i used to be!!

forgot!!!! what else? wink wink wink … forgot .. oh oh oh …. i’m lazy!! not enuff sleep … talkin too much … thinkin too much … playin too much … sleepin too much .. eating too much .. lazy too much .. goin out too much …. etc!! but actually, i jus spent that kind of thingy with ma parents esp. my mom!!!

Healing stage 3 …
i’m cool!!! i’m OK!!! another stage to go … wakakakkaaa … SATISFIED BABY!!!! stage 3, i was spending my time with driving driving n driving … driving to St. Kilda and Toorak (Chapel St) plus free way. GOOD!!! school? cool!! wakakkakakakaa … wink wink … so far so good!! SO HAPPY MANNNNNNNNNN!!! NO BURDENS!!! wakakkakakakakakaa… I’M SO KRAZEEEEEEEEEEE BECAUSE I’M BACK TO MA YG FAMILY AFTER I HAD A BREAK FOR A YEAR OR SO!! INSANEEEEEEEEEE MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!

nothin to write … being brain damaged for a while … almost 3 weeks, but i think this week am kinda alright. after driving insanely in da street with ma car .. well .. i feel very light … no sad songs anymore!!! finally, i came back to ma normal mood of music!! hahahahahhaa… funni hey? wakakakkakakakakaa … im insane!!! these days i drove ma car around … dont tell me about da speed limit!! hahahahaaa … i’m crazy with hook turn!! puahahahhahahahahahahaa … drove around city these days, lygon, etc. then today i went to car wash to get ma car washed, i forgot which area, outside city .. lolz … damned!! so traffic jam!! wakkakakaa.. now ma car is so shiny!! hehehehhehehee … then i drove to st. kilda … couldnt find da parking mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn … all full, even parking in da down beach area, luna park, mc donalds, etc. crazy mannnnnnnnnnnn .. found a parking but only for half hour!! so then, we went back to city … wakakakkakakakakakakakakakakakkakakakakakaka … look … am so happy!!! i’m crazy!! i love driving baby!!!! wakakkakakakaakakakkakakakakakakakakkakakaa… i’m really crazy when i drive and really have guts to cut ppl in da road!!! aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggg …..