LINZ SAID SO!!!

its been a week since the last time i hit the town of melb!! hahahaa …  dunno what ive been lookin for. im still searching for it. during these days im watching FRIENDS season 10 and still continuing .. and its so funny …. i laughed a lot. anyways, i always repeat those dvds from season 1 to 10. coz i love FRIENDS sitcom a lot. coz i grew up with that sitcom and i knew there still tonz of sitcoms that i grew up with.

i wanna write something but i forgot .. wakkakakaa … oh i just wanna spend time with ma folks at the moment, esp. my mom. such a turn off for me if people have got no respect for my folks and making my folks such a trifle! i dont care whether you are my best friend or we’ve been friends for too long and or my lover, those weird ppl, etc. i know there tonz of people dunno the rules or my rules and im sorry i hav to say BYE!! it sounds like JOEY TRIBBIANI, "I DONT SHARE FOOD!! AND ITS A TURN OFF FOR A GIRL TO SNEAK OUT MY FOOD ALTHOUGH I LIKE THE GIRL!!". something like that! well, yknow what i mean … i know it sounds selfish but oh well .. its just like that.

i made mistakes many times, dunno how many times, perhaps i cant count em anymore. but i wont make the same mistakes anymore. folks are getting older, if it is not us, who else will take care of em? i would turn a thousand or million times so i can spend more time with ma folks and being a good kid. but oh well, i cant …

i feel sorry for myself for bein such a fool in the past, againsts my folks for someone or people who never respected their parents, indeed. you can change your lover or friends, but not your parents. if i can, i would do anythin to make them live longer. i dont know its a fear or what … maybe … i never thought about it until a few years ago. that makes me grow up more and more, from the way i think and how i can face the world. some ppl said," youre not a kid anymore. youre in your 20ish, etc etc etc". i used to listen to em, but the more i grow up each day, the more i keep thinkin, you can have your own life, but in certain time they are still people who give you life in this world, who feed you even until now (although you live by yourself), who love you in every way with all their hearts, dont care about your background or what happens to you and blah blah blah … i believe, if you cant respect your folks, then you wont have respect for other people or even to yourself. its scary but i dont give a damn with your opinion.

not as happy as i thought .. wakkakaa.. but as i thought i knew i wouldnt be happy as i came back to melbourne. im lazy .. i feel bored with melb … i just wanna go back home again & havin fun wiv ma mates!! huauhaahauhauhuhauhauhaa… shiet … maybe coz i cant leave someone there in jtown!! hahahhahahahaa… so weird mannnn … when i was at half way to melb by plane, all of sudden, i was thinkin about him!! hohoho .. what happened … i wonder what would happen if we wont be friends no more … i mean, what US would be like if we become more than just a friend? .. wakkakakaa .. thats an idiot thought i have ever got so far!! stupid me, but i miss that person terrible too much yesterday!! i wish i could stay longer … im sorry, im just krazee … hhahahahaa… as i told you, i never thought this person would hang in ma brain for a while or sometimes walk pass thru ma brain!! it’s so weird!! hahahahhhahahaaa… he was just a kind of person i would ignore for so many years … huauhauhauhaa… never talked to him at all although i knew him for ages by mutual friends. the one, somehow, people asked him to take care of me … hahhaa… but i used to ignore his existence for so many years … wakkakaaa…. the only one, people would recommanded him as a good friend or lover … how people would describe him as a good person … but all i thought, "what a nerd!!"… hahhaahhaa.. even until now … but now everythings changed … not much changed, but how i love to be one of his friends!! hahahahahahhahahahaa…. i cant wait to see him again!! huauhahuahua….

neva thought that i would miss back home insanely like this .. honestly, i still need more holidays wiv ma mates n for my life!! more than 4 years in melb is driving me insane… let’s count how many people asked me to stay back home? i never thought that during all my life, i have so many mates … wakkakaaa.. when i get back home, they are still there … hhahahhahaaa… never thought so many people wanted to be ma mates .. lolz … im happy … slurps .. i love everything about jtown … one thing i learnt after i went back home … hahhahahahahaa…. ah. im lazy to talk about it! i cant wait to go back home again!!

last nite couldnt sleep .. i went to bed around 4am .. wakakkaaa incredible hulk series .. wakkakaa was watching it. mmm .. woke up around 9.30am, then i slept again til 10.15am.. wakakkaa .. then i went to ma cousin’s house n then picked up other friend, indah. then we went to cinema .. wakakkaa.. GUE KAPOK JATUH CINTA!! we took crazy stupid photos in a very tiny little box which doesnt fit 3 people!! stupid box!! the result? our photos were nuts!! then around 12.45pm, we went to cinema .. wakakkakaa.. blah blah blah .. after finished, we had our krazy lunch at venus .. wakkaka.. as usual, we took photos of our foods .. nasty and krazee!! huauhauhahua… were talking til 4pm.. wakkakaa … dunno .. i forgot!!!!

last nite i slept almost 6am in da morning .. wakakakkakakakakaa …then i woke up again around 8am coz my mom was so busy coming to my bedroom to clean things on ma desk. huauhuahaa… although i slept but i knew, just i couldnt open ma eyes no more. then around 9.30am my mom woke me up, saying that she would go out, later would pick me up when i ready to go. huauhahuauha.. i slept n woke up again around 11am, perhaps.. took shower, design ma hair as usual!! huauhauhauhauha… damned!! then we went out, oh before that of course i had ma lunch, jus a lil bit!! slurps … but then around 3pm i was so damned hungry. then i went to buy cds, plus i had late another lunch at A&W.. hahahhaa.. root beers with ice cream!! hehehehee…

huh .. went back home, took ma pants from alterations ..  then around 5.30pm went to ma cousin’s house. my uncle treated me dinner .. hehehhehee .. we went to sizzler’s .. wakkakaka… i had ma yummy steak!!! slurps .. i took photo of it!! huahahuuhaa.. yeah using ma cousin’s camera!! wakakkakakaa…. theres an american flag on ma steak!! later on i’ll add to ma fs after my cousin sends me the pic!! hahahhaa….

2moro, me, ma cousin n our mate, will go for 2 movies!! hahahaha.. kinda movie marathon!! hohohoho … wakkakakakakkakakakkaa … swing … swing … im so full now!! huauahuhuahuahua…. watchin tv n relaxin .. wakakkakaka …

i dont wanna go back to melbieeeeeee … hahahhaa… but i cant … i have to go back!! sob sob … and i was so pissed off to the stupid caller!! hauauhauha…. read ma story .. huahauha…. interesting thoughts of mine, maybe?

TRUTH, CRY N LIE

A RED ROSY CHEEKS
A DROP OF TEAR TO KEEP
REMINDS ME OF YOU
ALONGSIDE A SIGH
ALONGSIDE OF CRY
A SOFT SUMMER RAIN
A SMILE THAT HIDES A PAIN
WHY SHOULD YOU BE ASHAMED?
CAUSE IN EVERY  LIFE
A LITTLE RAIN MUST FALL
AND YOU ARE MY FRIEND
CHARMINGLY SENTIMENTAL BRAIN
THERES TRUTH BEHIND A CRY
ON EVERY WORDS THAT CAME OUT STRONG
JUST LET THEM GO AND LETS GET ALONG
ON EVERY GRUDGE AND EVERY FIGHT
I MISS YOU ALL DAY AND NIGHT
HAVE YOU HAD YOUR TIME OFF TODAY?
TO DRINK A CUP OF TEA AND SMILE A WAY?
SOMETIMES I WONDER
WILL I EVER SEE YOU
WITHOUTH ALL YOUR GAME PLAN
WHEN ALL YOU HAVE IS
NOTHING BUT A PURE BLISS
I WILL WAIT THAT DAY
WHEN YOU CAN FIND YOUR WAY
OUT OF THIS MAZE OF LOVE
AND YOU CAN LAUGH
TO SEE CRIES AND LIES
COZ YOU KNOW BETTER THAN ME
ONLY THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE

THERES A TRUTH BEHIND A CRY

AND THERES A CRY BEHIND A LIE

ON EVERY THOUGHT THAT COME OUT WRONG

JUST LEARN FROM IT AND PLEASE STAY STRONG

ON EVERY GRUDGE AND FIGHT

I MISS YOU ALL DAY AND NITE

ITS NOT EASY TO UNDERSTAND

BUT YOU MUST HOLD ON YOUR STAND

I KNOW YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW I KNOW

THERES A TRUTH BEHIND A CRY

AND THERES A CRY BEHIND A LIE

THERES A HOPE EVERY FRIGHT

THERES A LIGHT ON NITE

SUNDAY … sunday .. i slept aroind 4am, after watching HULK oldies series .. aaawww .. then knight rider series but i couldnt open ma eyes anymore then i fell asleep. around 10am, my mom woke me up coz we were gonna have one day trip. what a long way to go .. maybe kinda as far as MELB TO GREAT OCEAN ROAD? huauhauhhuauhaa…. anyways .. wakkakaa… i was so sleepy … then when we returned, it was so heavy rain .. we got back home around 4 or 5pm after we went for late lunch. after home, i had other meal, that we called as DINNER!! hahahhaa….. watchin tv for a while, my fave show, but i was too tired n sleepy then i slept for around 3 hours. yknow what? today .. someone called me like fucken insanely … missed calls like more than 50 times … i think maybe 90? bah …. late that nite this person called again … huauhauhuhaa… then i talked to this old woman on the phone, she said, she called from PAPUA NEW GUINEA (ok, mis-spelt .. forgot how to spell again) and someone asked her to call this number .. what da heck .. i dont even know people from this country .. lolz .. even they called to my aussie number too. insane! of course i dont wanna talk longer coz im the one who will pay the bills for ROAMING!!! thats so annoying and this person was kept calling again n again like million times! i only have a friend from TIMOR (not from PAPUA) and definetely he doesnt call me .. hahaha.. since he doesnt know my number!! wakkakakaa….

hahhahahaa… blankie … blankieeeeeeee …. blankie heart, mind, soul n everything .. wkakakakakakaka …. numb … im thinkin to do hairdressin thingy since most people said it suits me and honestly im into hair design n fashion! hahahhaa….   i never realized it … im into it since i was so young, maybe elementary skool … stupid me!! i always love to design my own hair … from the style and colour .. but never realized it till last year!! hahahahhahahaa…. i wonder why people always ask me, can you cut my hair please .. lolz … i dont dare!!! crazy!!! im not a prof!!! i only happened to cut my own hair own … the result was not too bad, maybe needs to polish my talent!! hahahhahahaa…. oh well, later i’ll try to take the course. hahhaaa.. even my other mate thought i was studying DESIGN something … cmon .. art person should be like this!! hahahhaha… so many dreams n goals … i was thinkin to polish more ma skills in entertainment area (tv training, script writing, cameras, editing, etc) … but the ads came out a week before i go back to melb .. of course, im not able to do it. damn …. aaaaaaaarrrrrggggggg!! so many tv stations are lookin for people!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggg!!! hahahaa.. but im not a kind of person who loves to join MTV VJs HUNT!! i only interested behind the scene areas … wwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! but my life’s supported by MTV ….. wakakkakakaa … well, you’ll know what i mean if you are my mates n really know me kinda well!! hehhehe…

am enjoying ma root beers at the moment … as usual … one of my fav drinks … hardly to find in melb, only in certain places. pour root beers in a big mug glass and add a vanilla ice cream on the top and the taste is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo goooooooooooodddddddd!! i used to have this drink a lot when i was young and how i always miss it even until now. hahahhahaha…. and the other ice cream yummy … mixed ice cream that i cant find in other places .. wakakkakakaa … how i love living in jtown!!!!

somehow, during ma trip … i mean, when on our way to go back to jtown, sigh .. something made me think .. and made me so weak … something i heard … something i read … not too good .. not so good .. but it was crazy!! but it was pictured as same as what just happened to me not a while ago. hahhaa…. on the other story, something makes me worry again … but sometimes i dont care anymore coz my heart, soul, mind arent there anymore. so when i leave, hhahaa… im doing just fine, as fine as now. coz if i recall it n connects everything from the past n present, it wouldnt work… trust me! so i was so glad it happens in the past rather present. coz i have to think using my BRAIN, not my emotions, not my heart, etc. so many worlds in our human being life … but in my oponion, there only 2 worlds … 2 kinds of people, as same as heaven and hell … a good person and a bad person divided into 2 worlds … no matter how you put them together in one world, sometimes its really hard to make them get along. well, sometimes it works … but a very small percentage (haiz… i forgot how to spell again) .. take a look in a jail, how tonz of bad people turn into good? hardly, isnt? it happens to any kind of aspects in our life. some people born to good or even bad … what you have now and happens to you is what has already written in your book, a book of life since the day you were born. it has written on your palms, from the beginning of your life and end. what do you think lines in your palms? right and left palms .. bah … you got at least 3 chances in every aspect of your life … you can make it good, you can ruin it, and you can destroy it. YOU CANT EVEN READ YOUR OWN LINES IN YOUR PALMS, CAN YOU?  of course, you cant, if you can then whats gonna happen in this world? you cant reveal GOD’s secrets though for our life. do you know why people somehow happy in love, broken hearted, bad ending, happy ending, sometimes born for being along for all their lifes, divorced, etc etc etc? it might be cruel .. but … i dont think i need to reveal this yeah? hahhaa… i dont wanna make myself sounds like a fortune-teller … lolz … hahaahhahahahahaa…..

huauhauhauhauhauhauha……. how i love this band, R.A.D.J.A!! hehehehe…. cant wait to get their new album! let’s see … friday nite i couldnt sleep well … bad headache, as usual! dunno what da heck i was thinkin these a few days… i tried to sleep but i couldnt, so then i took a medication for my stupid migraine … the medication works around 6am then i fell asleep … i woke up around 8am, then i slept again then i woke up again around 10am. i took shower, n got ready, waiting for ma mates to come around, yosep and ronald. they are ma high skool mates .. wakkaka … ronald used to sit in front of me in year 12. hehheee… as i remember, me n yosep werent classmates at all, but we used to go to skool together by school bus. hahaha… what a quite person! ronald is one of my mates who is still very very very talkative n funny! i always laugh! then they came around 11am, then we gone to TA mall … talking, walking around, we sat in starbucks, until around 1pm then my junior high mates came to approached us, yanti and yenvi, then other friends came along, rita, fenny. we went to pizza hut’s, since yanti treated us and celebrated her bday … then albert came, hana came… hehee.. then other mates came as well .. ano n his mate. took pix, etc .. hahaa

blah blah blah people went back home left me, yosep n ronald… we were talking, walking around then we went to a movie, LORD OF WAR! hehehe… then went back home, traffic jam all over the road .. hahhaha raining … shiet thunders .. hahhaa…. oh i forgot, during my way to TA, another ronald (who used to be in melb n went back for good already) called me…. saying i didnt call him at all since i came back to jtown! i was totally forgot to let him know that i went back to jtown! hahahahaha…..  ok, never mind! perhaps we’re gonna catch up next week … haizzzzzzzzz!!!

im gonna have a trip on this sunday!! huauhauhauhuhauhauhauha… yay! as i wrote this, hahhaa… i remember what ma hs mate, ronald told me …. well, just a secret between us!! mmm .. not too bad his idea!! i was a bit surprised when he told me this idea. what he told me was exactly the same with what my mom told me last a few days before. funny how it can be .. wakkakaa…. that will be our lil secret!! hehehehhee….. honestly, before he pointed out this idea, i have thought about it for a while but oh well, i thought mmm .. maybe not .. impossible … how can 3 people have same mind and thought about the same thing? hahahahhahaa… only god knows and god had a plan for this! THATS OUR LIL SECRET SO FAR!!! we are nuts and thats how we became mates until now!!

all ma mates who know me, they know im nuts … all of em are nuts as well .. hahhahahahahaa… thats how we keep our friendship like this … 10 years … 20 years … even longer than that … no matter how far we are … even if we divided by oceans ….

how i still want to stay here more .. spend more time wiv ma mates like we used to do at HS years! but unfortunetely, i have to go back to melb asap… but i cant wait for these mates come to melb, to visit me. i hope they can get their visas and im sure we’re gonna have tons of fun!! hope sooooooooo .. GOLD COAST, WE’RE COMING!! hehehe…

sometimes we dont know what god plans for us or even what god has planned for us. maybe this is my path .. my way to enjoy my life … maybe this is how god wants my life to be. maybe its true what old folks said about, if someone is your destiny, then that person will be yours no matter how long, what time brings you … until you two meet again. somehow, i thought it was just a fuckin bullshiet. do you realize? that there was one human, just one human the opposite sex of mine, i used to see him every day. the one that i never paid attention so much … the one that used to make me think, "well, he is alright!", "he is not too bad!" n blah blah blah … the one that never even ever crossed on my mind during all my life! hahahhahaa.. funny hey … so many years we aparted - separated! when i saw this human again … oh my god … something told me … haiz!! "i met you again. you made me look at you again. you made me talk to you again. you made me nuts. you made something different. you made me thinkin harder than before. you made me smile … " and blah blah blah! oh no, maybe im krazee!! im not in love yet, but im pure into you, maybe!! or it is just me? maybe it is just me!! hahahahhahahahahahaa…. trust me, my crazy life!! thats how the way it is. hahahhahahaa…

… later thannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn … no jtown no moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ………. huauhahuauhuhaa… next week doh doh doh …. slurpsssssssss …. i had a weird dream this morning!! i didnt expect this dream to show up, however, i know it means something since its been a ages since the last time i had this kind of dream. coz every time i dream about this, it happens whether i notice about it or not. the funniest thing is … its kinda connected to what i see and my dreams. i dont really think about it though .. well .. coz i dont care …

until now, i havent bought my ipod movie 60GB, but i have to buy it before i go back to melb including my PSP. hahahahhaa… im not a game freak, but for PSP, of course i’ll be a game freak again.

i dont miss melb .. weird, hey? maybe i feel bored with melb for a while and i feel like its not enuff for me spend this kind of short holidays. but trust me, i had a lot of fun, much more fun than before. well, thats all i can say …

im watching oasis’s concert on mtv!! i bought many cds for these 3 weeks.. wakkakaa… booooooohooooooooooooooooooooooo … i shopped a lot … i was so krazee! hahahhaa… im an indo freak!! huauhauhuhauhauhauha…. i no longer interested in any kind of asian things or even western … well, i think this is just for a while!! ahhahaa… i ate cakes a lot .. slurpsssssssss …

next week, i hav to rush myself to buy tons of dvds and games or i’ll be nuts!! hahhaa… during my short term holidays, i was too busy with mates, family n myself!! i was so happy i finally met daniel!! huahuahuahuahuahuhuaa… ma dream man [your wish!!! hahahahaha your dream!!)!! huhuhuhuhu … slurpsss .. his smile, his tiny eyes, his hair style, the way he talks, his cool style, etc… wakkakaa… im crazy!!! much more better than jay, hey? hahahahhahaha…

i think my face is much more whiter and cleaner than before … i was dreamin to buy chanel face cream and those stupid things… finally, i decided to buy in singapore airport while i was waiting for the connecting flight. hahahhaa.. in 3 weeks, the cream works … no intentions for it though, but i just realized a few days ago, my face is soomther than before n kinda ma panda eyes mark is gone. so then, i found my mom bought other chanel stuffs. then i found the cleaners. anyways, in spore, i found something else and those are good .. hhehehe… last week, i bought lancome lips gloss!! huauhahuahuauhauhhuauhauhauhauh…… ok, thats not important.

the next day after one day in fantasy land, i felt like a broken bone my whole body. my right side neck was fuckin hurt … my left knee was swell in 3 colours…  my hips as well in red colours … my back as well .. my arms .. oh my god .. my head .. my forehead .. geez!! i felt like i was doing hiking n fell of somewhere .. hahhahaa…. even ma fingers .. hohohoho … bloody hell crazy rides!

soon when i go back to melb, i’ll be the saddest person in this world. i’ll go back to ma ritual days .. my crazy intense scoobeedoooo life! start hunting for jobs .. late for meals and blah blah blah …. hahahhaahaha …. but im still alive!! huauhuhaa….

i prayed a lot these days .. until i dont know what to say to god because every nite i say the same thing even until now. i read the same pages in the bible … my parents said, you should thank to god for what we have these a few years esp. our good life, you could finished your degree in australia, livin in melb, able to have good food, good clothes, etc. yup, i thank god for everything … i know god wont be that cruel to me, well especially!! god wont do bad things to me….

"im fallin in love again, not as beautiful as the first time i loved someone. the old sweet memories are still inside heart. i never understand why your shadow is still haunting me. am i able to survive passing thru all the things that ever happened to me? im sorry if i still memorize it, doesnt mean to hurt you. i’ll try to forget, bury all memories with him. im fallin in love again although not as beatiful as before" -star-

"i cant never forget him ever who stands in between us. but i cant never ever throw away your shadow during all my life that always be a friend of mine. forgive me for having 2 loves between us. its hard for me to leave him and for time that always flows besides me. forgive me from the buttom of your heart. only if i can choose. if that time i didnt meet him, maybe it wont be like this. you and him, now in my heart, carryin me, destroyed me" -purple-

-for someone out there whether you know who you are or not-

"love yourself … love me … love you … love myself … thank you for loving me from the buttom of your heart. youre the colour of my life. you are my sunshine … you made my life much more better than before. thank you for supporting me thru thick n thin … i love you, i miss you, im crazy about you. you taught me a lot. you drive me crazy. i love you as much as i love my snoopy, my jay, my mufc, as hard as red devils soldiers n green day! you put me up when i was down. i thanked god, that i finally found you. we made for each other. i know you too well, you know me inside out. i just wanna be with you forever. i love my fate, my destiny, my soulmate. theres nothin that i wouldnt do for you, bluntly sayin: YOU COMPLETE ME and i know IM GONNA SEE YOU SOON!!!".

wakakkakakaa… today i went to fantasy land with ma cousin n her friend. wkakakkakaa… it was hot and humid… and we were sweating a lot all the time .. wakkakaaa…. the first time i took a ride -swing boat- after 14 years .. huauhahua… i screamed and dyin.. wakkakakakaa…. i have height phobia .. lolz .. anyways, when my cousin n her friend went to take a ride and i was waiting n sitting under the tree then i saw DANIEL in front of me. sigh … this guy is very very very very very handsome!! aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggg … crush on him!! I CRUSH ON HIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!! wakakkakaa… since 2003 maybe!! lolz .. he used to study in aussie as well .. wakkakakaka… aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwww ….. huahuauhuahuhahuahua… then we took the same ride with him .. after that we took photos!! haiz!! he is so handsome!!! good lookin!!! charming .. aaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwww …. ok, met him twice … then when i was waiting in another spot waiting my cousin n her friend finished for the ride … i saw him again, he was in front of me again!!!! when we were queuing for the ride .. shiet … my cousin told me, "thats daniel!!", and i looked at him, "damn … its him!!! aaaaaaawwwwww!!"… then almost our turn to play the ride, i turned over on my back .. shiet .. i was lookin at him and at the same time he was lookin at me and i turned back around!! his eyesssssssss … sharp .. and aaaaaaawwwwwwwww …. yeah yeah yeah .. he has a gf .. lolz .. she is so so so so pretty!! shes so lucky!!! huahuauhauhauhhuauhauhauhahuaa….. he is a nice and friendly guy!! huahuahuahuhuaa… oh oh oh oh danielll!!! i want daniel!! huauhauhahuauhuaha… aaaaaaaaawwwwwwwww!!

I LOVE JTOWN!!! hahahahahhahahahaa… its been a while since the first time i arrived here and i must say that I LOVE JTOWN!!! i feel bored with melb … yup, i need to change the atmosphere (forgot how to spell!!) … i just came back homeeeeeeeee …

today .. i woke up earlier mornin 5am then i went back sleep again n woke up about 7am. last nite i slept about 11pm. then around 9am, i went to ma cousin’s house, yeni. then at the same time, indah drove her car. so, i jumped into her car n 3 of us went out to da cake’s shop. we bought a cake and we wrote, for all teachers. then we went to our high school .. wakkakakaa .. we met our teachers … lolz .. all of em were surprised!!! most teachers said that i was the one who changed differently .. DRAMATICALLY!! wwakkakakaa… i was so happy!!! school still looks da sameeeeeeee … huauhauhauha…. one of ma teachers said, are you a rocker now? huauhauhaa… coz today i dressed like a rocker .. wakkakaa black black .. wrist band … etc … we took photos .. wakakkakakaa

then indah drove me n yeni to KGM, and she went back home. so then, 2 of us went to starbucks!! sat for a while with our green tea (mine is always without cream). wkakakaa… when the cashier gave me a change, i was so confused coz until now i havent getting used to indo currency or indo notes .. wakakkakakaa…. too many zerossssssss ..  i sat for a while and looked confused but then i figured it out! hahahahhaahhaa… all notes look da sameeeeee for me, although they look different. ok, stupid me!! we were talking for a while til around 1.30pm, we bought movie tix JOMBLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoO… hella funny …. and yeah, my mobile network went sux .. couldnt call n receive calls … only sms .. wakakkaa.. sux

after movie .. we went to have our late lunch at jap restaurant .. i forgot the restaurant’s name!! whatever name!! huauauhauhuhauhaa… full .. couldnt walk .. i think we went to toilet many times .. wakkaka we drunk a lot .. ate a lot .. couldnt walk, too full …

then we were talkin around.. wakkakakakakkakakakaa .. yknow … cd stores .. what else .. book store .. i bought 2 shoes laces .. wakkakaa skulls and blackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk …. i saw many things!!!Huauhahuauhauhuhauhauhaa…. laterssssssssssss ….

i bought green day american idiot cd …. wakkakaa when i was in melb i didnt buy it, too expensive .. wakakkakaa… 2 years ago, when i was in jtown, i didnt buy it as well!! mmmmmmmmm … still full now …. slurpssssssssssssssssssss …. then we sat again for coffee, talkin talkin .. hehehee …

thats all for today .. wakkakaka.. after drove yeni went back home, i went out again .. lolz .. then after an hour (well, maybe more or less … maybe 2 hours), i went back home .. wakkaka .. relaxing .. sms-in .. busy with ma phone, watchin RADJA lIVE JAM!! su sent me a sms from melb whether i was interested in kanye west concert or not!! huauhahuahua… lazy .. coz at festival hall!!

againnnnnnnnnnnnnn …. i was digging something else in ma bedroom … it reminds me of something … uuuuuummmmmmmmm 8 years agoooooooooooo …. i had this guy in ma life!! hahahhaa… somehow, i still miss him though!! yeah, i moved on already … i miss him!!! 6 years i havent seen him! as i said, everything wont be the same anymore. lookin back those years … i was so crazy about him!! he made my bright days … cant live without him .. i found everything … anyways, "i cant erase all the memories that had been carved in my life … if it written for me was the best for you, i’ll make you the best memories in my life, but its not easy for me to leave the track of my life".

"happy 17th bday, linaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!". when you hit your head into the wall and tears almost fell out from your eyes. when i saw you, i wanted to come close and said something but then i didnt say anything. mmmm…. how i miss you in the past 6 years…. sigh … it looks like ive forgotten you, but i haveeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnntttttttttttttttttttt even until now!!!!!!!!! i moved on … i moved on ages ago … i dont believe in destiny … i dont believe in fate and i dont wanna believe all about it. i want you so badly!!!! i want you so badly those days, those years. i wanted burst my tears out ….

when i found someone else, why am i always doodle your name? when im with someone else, why am i always remember you? when im loving someone else, why am i feeling like im in love with you only? when i like someone else, why it feels like i like you? its krazeee hey .. 6 years … its been such a long time … 6 years since the last time i saw you, why the feelin is still so strong somehow?  i moved on already, i just miss you … miss those days when we were friends … miss those stories as it written on ma diaries every single day ages ago. why when im with someone else, i never write anything about that person? why am i only want to write your stories between me and you? why oh why? please kill me .. please kill my love to you because its such an old skool story. why am i loving someone else because that person as similar as you? why am i still lookin your image in someone else?