Archive for March, 2006

Friday, March 31st, 2006

IT IS NOT A SIDE EFFECT OF COCAINE BUT I AM THINKING IT MUST BE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ….

kasihku, yang ku tau betapa kau slalu menyayangiku. hatiku pun tak sanggup membalas yg tlah kau brikan untukku. resahnya diriku, tak mampu lepaskanmu. namun ku tak bisa bersama denganmu.

"takkan ku biarkan kau sedih bila ku pergi dari hidupmu. walau kecewamu saat ku pinta jauh darimu".

kenangan bersamamu sangat berarti……

i am your main chick
who got that game chick
one and the same chick
the one you can hang with!

Monday, March 20th, 2006

my heart, only goes on you
my interest, only you
thats my happiness
at the moment

together, we promised
always, we will walk together
from now and then

with you, i live
always, together
thats my promise
faithful to you
i will take care of you
as long as i live
every time
you are by my side

god made us for each other
because this is HIS plan
no matter what happens
in our life
always let HIM does

welcome to my life again!

Sunday, March 19th, 2006

you want me to write something? hahahahhaa… booooooooo hoooooooo …. i wont write anything!! bash me for it!!! but im just a bummer!! haha … although they wont even know, i just wanna say:

thanks to those characters in TV: JOEY TRIBBIANI, CHANDLER, ROSS, RACHEL, MONICA AND PHOEBE! LIGHT MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE …. HAHHAA… I DONT SHARE FOOD!!!!! never feel bored with everything about FRIENDS!!

oh my goooooooooooooooodddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd …..

 

and songs from jason mraz, duncan sheik, pete murray, john mayer, michael buble and blah blah … and the song that ive been always missing since last year [tried to avoid this song but i cant! huahuauhauhauhauha.. fucken hell!!!]: BOW WOW FEAT CIARA: LIKE YOU …. damn, thats hot!! and it goes like this [IT'S NOT CHEESY BUT WELL ... IM KRAZEEE. HAHAHAHHAAA]:

[Hook - Ciara]
I ain’t neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that’s what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain’t neva had nobody do me like u)

[Verse 1 - Bow Wow (Ciara)]
Now I done been with different kind of girls
Like I done seen em all but ain’t none of them at all (like u)
And I done seen the best of the best
Baby still I ain’t impressed cause ain’t none of them at all (like u)
If you know how I feel when I chill
If I’m seen with a girl then she gotta be just (like u)
And baby that’s the way I feel
And I got no choice but for me to keep it real
Cause when we first got together started hanging out you was
Skeptical at first had to figure out if
I was the kind of guy to try to dog you out but
I ain’t that kind of guy you tried to make me out
You found out when you turned into my baby
I showed them other brothers how to treat a lady
I let you drive when I ride that Mercedes
And I ain’t trippin or actin shady cause baby you kno

[Hook - Bow Wow & Ciara]
I ain’t neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that’s what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain’t neva had nobody do me like u)

[Verse 2 - Ciara]
And every time I think about you (I cry)
When you ride when you call when you come I (around)
Your love is a-mazing to me
Can’t wait til I see you (I wanna be wit you again)
And every time you’re out on the road (I make a trip)
And whenever I’m doing a show (Don’t you forget)
That I’m your (main chick)
Who got that (game chick)
One and the (same chick)
The one you can hang with

[Hook - Bow Wow & Ciara]
I ain’t neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that’s what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain’t neva had nobody do me like u)

[Verse 3 - Bow Wow]
Okay when you hit the mall pop tags spend a few g’s (g’s)
Hit the runway to a new season (season)
It ain’t nothin it’s you the one I care for
Feel like I ain’t doing enough that’s when I share more (share more)
I give you this give you that what you need love (love)
You know I got it holla at me if you need love (love)
And affection cause i’ll be your protection
Kinda hard job but i’ll do it to perfection
And you can tell that I ain’t tryna let you go
I get with you when I can so that’s how I let you kno
And you be trippin cause sometimes I gotta go
But you the first one I hollared to right after my shows
And I was trippin in a sense I was tense
From my body loose around you what imma do without you
I gotta get it together say whateva
But since I met you my life seems so betta

[Hook - Ciara]
I ain’t neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that’s what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain’t neva had nobody do me like u)

[Bow Wow & Ciara]
I ain’t neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that’s what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain’t neva had nobody do me like u)

WAKKAKAKAKAA… trust me, im krazeee .. dont bother me please!
beagle… beagle … beagle … beagle … beagle … im krazee about chu!! hahahaha…. i wonder what ppl called diz kind of feelin … geez!! why am i so happy like thiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssssss? why i am smiling all da timeeeeeeeee? wakkakakakakakkaakaa… youre ma sunshine after the rain …. WHO IS BEAGLE?
dont ask me!! lolz…

crazy mood!

Sunday, March 12th, 2006

damn i miss ma mates back home! damn i miss JTOWN so dearly! damn i miss uni days!! damn I STUCK IN MELB!! hahahaa… damn of everything!! i bet my heart isnt in melb no more. it’s time to settle down! hahahahahahaha… i just wanna go home, mate! bored bored bored!! i miss JTOWN!! i wonder why … maybe i just need a lil bit of "atmosphere change". what kinda an atmosphere do i need?  melb is too quiet and i became a quiet person as well!! hahaha…. jtown is a crowded city and im so crowded now! yeah, whatever…. i dont understand what im sayin here. hibernating … hibernating … silent treatment … hibernating .. silent treatment … hell yeah, i love ma life! its time to take a break from all ma nuts activities, from uni dayssssss although i missed it so badly, work, friends, movies, concerts, family, etc. haaaaaaaaaaa ….. it’s been a year since the last time i took this kinda of break. im goin to ma own jungle, live with ma monkeys, lions, birds, trees, coconuts, seas, bananas, etc… hahahahaa.. i think im dreamin that kind of holidays! in an island, laying down under the sun, with the sea n blue blue wave, take photos, playing with sands… hahahhaa… thats on ma mind all the time. thats what i called a peaceful life. maybe i need a few days off for holidays!! hahahahaa… its been 2 years since the last time i travelled overseas, i meant the real overseas, going to other countries like i used to every year, 2-3 times a year. damn!! we’ll see… next destination EUROPE, it’s gonna be at the end of this year or perhaps at the beginning of next year. whoaaaaaaaa … UK, Spain, Holland, France, Belgium, Germany, Austria, Italy, Scandinavia (oh how i love this small country, NORWAY), etc etc etc. damnnnnnnnnn …. I dont even remember what other countries in Europe! hahahahaa… never mind! yeah, im gonna meet some mates there perhaps! huauhauhauhaa…. YAY!! i always wonder people in other globe, what it looks like there and living there, what do they do every day, their food, cultures, etc (this is what ive been doing since i was 13 or 14 even until now, always keep wondering about the other side of this world and i’d like to discover everything from what i read, heard and seen from TV. haaaaaaaa …. thats the reason why i have tonz of mates all over da world. UNKNOWN FACTS ABOUT ME!) … yeah, common knowledge, but you have to go there though, see with your big eyes. wakkakakaa… nasty! i only talk about craps here … thats the only thing crossin on ma mind!! madagascar!! hahaha… OH ANGEL!!! you’re so silly and im your slayer!! wakakakkaa… why am i so happy today? hahahhahahaa….

finally ….

Tuesday, March 7th, 2006

I think im still livin on ma fantasy … it keeps replaying all over my head til i cant stay focus to reality. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…………. I just wanna stay away from people at the moment. I dont wanna talk to anyone. I dont wanna go out at the moment. I dont want people disturb or bother me. I won’t pick up your phone calls, I wont reply your messages, I wont do anythin til next/further confirmation. When Im ready, I know where to find you and I know Im gonna be ready for next adventure of life. I know, I might sound very selfish, but … kinda hard to explain as well. I think this is my normal habit which always comes 2-3 times in a year. I can just sometimes GONE from people and reality all of sudden without giving a warning til people start to find out where I am and whats going on, then start to worry about me. Again .. since last year I didnt get ANY of this kind of break AT ALL, so well HERE I AM … I think, I really need a very long term break from reality activities. Im a THINKER, thats what I always do when Im on ma "think world". I need a really crazy time and space and I dont know how long its gonna be. Some people esp. friends, think I try to ditch em but oh well … Im not … Because Im sure if you know me better than others, then this is me, the crazy thinker and always do the "introspection of myself" 2-3 times in a year to be a better person. Life is easy, but somehow it’s not that easy, I guess. It’s a big step for me this year. It’s the time to decide everything and what Im gonna do in the next a few years. Hahaha… I cant imagine if I get a job as a thinker, I might get hella crazy stressness [well, doesnt mater what kind of job]. Anyways, I need to refocusing for what Ive been neglecting in the past. I bet, I neglected too much until I dont know where to start now. All I know I have to start from the beginning again since the first foundation has been collapsed! Wahey!!!! Any improvement so far in the half past year? Just a lil bit and Im still tryin to do much more better than this.

When I started to reach GOD then I know what Im gonna do. I did. Each time I start to pray, I feel like I wanna cry in front of HIM. I just wanna cry as much as I can. How long did I forget about Lord? Ha.. I dont even know … Maybe 10 years! I never realized it til back then … I realized how big Lord’s affection to me … changed around my world in a second but destroyed me not even in a second. I was kinda blind person who finally found out what I was looking for.  I BELIEVE! Something happens for a reason. Lord won’t be cruel to me, HE opens my eyes and let me live into the reality again. All I wanna do at the moment is more or less I just wanna get close with GOD, to find out, reach out, puts my heart there just for a while [since Im doing this a lil break and after this im still with Lord]. Because I need to find a way, a path for my life just a lil bit more. I always feel like my throat is kinda choked every time I pray to Lord. It feels like I cant say any no more words and HE knows everything without even I say a word. All I wanna do is cry and ask for HIS mercy. Well, something amazing has happened to me …

Thank you for all my mates who always be there when my mind, soul and heart collapsed! Thank you for bringing me up again, thank your for cheering me up again, thank you for always taking good care of me when im well and sick [thanks for making me porridge, eggs, noodles, vegies, etc etc and bringing me medicines when Im sick]. Thank you for all your phone calls/messages showing that all of you care about me. Thank you for cooking me food when all of you have free time, thank you for your companion from movies, music, games, sports, etc etc etc. Thank you for making me smile thru all these years, thank you for being such a good friend, thank you for sticking with me thru good n bad times, thanks for always be there when i need someone … I cant even say a word no more. I thanked Lord every day that in my life thru good and bad friends, good and bad people who want to deceive me - Thank you for making my life like this, stronger than before and thank you for the bless. For all my mates [you know who you are, I cant mention all ... too much too mention], thank you guys … Im sorry sometimes I just gone from this world for a while without telling anyone. HAHHAHAA… DONT WORRY, I’LL COME BACK LATER!! CYAAAAAAAAA … I’m POOF FOR A WHILE!! be good n good bless!!!! kekkekkee…

wakakkaaaakkakaa.. crazy!

Monday, March 6th, 2006

CANCER IN 2006

OVERVIEW: Relationships, relationships,
relationships. That’s going to be your focus during the first half of
2006, particularly during January and February. If you’re single,
prepare to be approached by someone you’ve been seeing on an extremely
casual basis — someone who’s ready to commit, and who hopes you’re
willing to do the same. If you’re not quite ready, though, don’t allow
yourself to feel forced, manipulated or talked into it. If you’re
attached, expect to be proud of your choice and to end up even closer
to your partner by the time summer rolls around. During the first three
weeks of November, an old flame will reappear in your life, most likely
asking for another shot. If you think you two really can come up with
new solutions to those old problems, and you’re interested, go for it.
If not, bow out gracefully and see if you can’t simply remain friends.

Throughout
2006, you’ll need to keep an extra careful eye on your finances.
Overspending will come easily to you, but if you give in to temptation,
you’ll have plenty of time to regret it — especially if you overextend
via plastic. In addition to keeping track of what you need to pay back
and when, you should also put a bit of cash aside. You may need it for
professional reasons around the end of March or the beginning of April.
You should also keep an eye out for the possibility of turning a hobby
into a part-time source of income — at least part-time. The universe
may be trying to nudge you into a whole new profession, and this could
be just the beginning.

By early winter, if
someone from out of town comes to you with an offer (and this someone
happens to be quite interesting, exotic and influential), think hard
before you automatically refuse it. This could be the one you’ve been
waiting for. Above all else — and in all departments — trust your
instinct. After all, when has it ever let you down?

LOVE 2006: If nothing else, the first half of 2006
will be fantastic for your self-esteem. And it won’t cost you a thing.
There’s no need for expensive counseling or self-help books when it
seems like everyone around you is singing your praises. Revel in the
unexpected recognition of your attributes and talents, and don’t be
surprised if romantic overtures accompany the hearty compliments.

In
the relationship department, this situation could be exactly what
you’ve been looking for — or it might turn you off a certain overly
enthusiastic individual forever. If you’re single, you’re likely to be
approached by someone you’d never quite thought of as a serious
prospect. The other person may feel far more passionately than you do.
If you’re not prepared for the exclusive relationship they propose,
then respect your own instincts and don’t allow yourself to be
persuaded. The sweet talk can only last so long. If you’ve already got
a special someone, showers of praise and material signs of affection
from your partner certainly aren’t going to hurt your relationship.
Just make sure to accept the flattery with grace, and you’ll feel
incredibly close to your partner as the year progresses.

Later
in the year, you may have to wean yourself from the unsolicited
accolades. But don’t worry — you won’t need verbal signs of affection
when people’s actions make their respect abundantly clear. You’ll rack
up admirers like other people collect fine bottles of wine. During the
first three weeks of November, a blast from the past may surface. Even
if this person isn’t begging for another chance, they’re probably
testing the waters to see if you’d be willing to give it another go.
Honestly ask yourself if you think things would be appreciably
different; if the answer’s no, retreat before any damage is done. In
the early winter, look for a new face or even a foreigner to make an
entrance into your life. You’ll instantly recognize this person as
friend or foe, so go with your gut when it comes to making decisions
about the future.

CAREER 2006: If you were in a shell for any part of
2005, the New Year brings the opportunity (and the obligation) to bust
out and start schmoozing. The first couple of months will be pretty
intense as you find yourself drawn into massive bouts of networking
despite your usual proclivities — you might even be the object of more
than one recruiter. Use that common sense you are so famous for in
evaluating all promises and claims, as at least one of these
connections will offer more than they can deliver. Toward the end of
the year, probably around mid-autumn, you will experience a wave of
nostalgia for a long-ago work situation that you know deep down is
irreplaceable.

As
important as your work relationships will be throughout the year, you
will find your relationship with money to be just as important to your
career. Focus on spending, budgeting and cost-cutting as much as
possible — the more you save early on, the better off you and your
organization will be at the end of the year. Remember the evils of the
penny-wise/pound-foolish combination and try to avoid them when
possible. Surpluses accrued in January and February can be safely spent
by spring, as long as you don’t rack up enormous deficits.

At
some point in the fall, you might pick up a new part-time freelance gig
that will take you in a wildly new direction if you let it. This new
direction doesn’t have to come from freelancing, nor does it have to be
followed for any length of time. Listen to your gut and figure out
what’s really best for you in light of your long-range career goals,
but don’t think twice about revising those goals if you think they’re
off base. By the time winter is past and you’re looking back on 2006,
you will see that every time you said no to an opportunity, you made
way for others to follow — and that every time you said yes, you found
something unexpected.

sumber: astrology dot kom

Sunday, March 5th, 2006

      
      
      
      this is cool, punyanya OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA …
OKA is cool .. cool .. cool .. wakkakakaa …

Intro:

Boy, explain to me

Where have u been?

Where were u last nite?

See I was up all nite

Chorus:

Things don’t seem right

Please tell me why

Need I say good bye?

U make me cry

Verse 1:

It’s not that im not trying to explain the situation

But deffinition of a loyalty is me

Last nite approx 10 o’clock

My boy rade asked me to meet him at the club, so

Let’s forget about ur instinct

Cuz everybody knows and see this wedding ring

I never change, u know I don’t fling (u know better)

So forget about the party, the bullshit, the bling-bling

Think about the future, this is nothing, there’s more

So, let’s make a little something

We connect, check the zodiak

When it comes to sex girl, u like a maniac

I like it when u say my name

u my top choice not the game, forget the pain

look it me, close range

even if u fat like..shit I ain’t got to explain

Back to chorus

Verse 2:

So wut’s nexx? Explain to me wut u wanna do, break up?

This cant be real I gotta wake up

My mom loves u allready, since we 1st steady

Many, many men wish they can have u, but they poof

As the earth rotates, only I that stays by ur side

Some say time kills, but u know I still luv u I still need u baby

Bridge:

Cant u see? U don’t treat me like u use to be

Baby just let me be cant u see?, u don’t treat me like u use to be

Baby just let me be can’t u see?

Hook:

U’ve hurt me boy

See u cant bring me joy

And I just cant go on

So leave me alone

Verse 3:

Baby chill, don’t get it twisted

I still luv u like I luv chocolate (remember that?)

Stop talking like u smell shit

Cuz I don’t even talk to any of they groupie chick

Tequila pitch? I don’t touch

Trust me and don’t judge, eyes shut, hands clutch

Don’t say bye bye bye

Promise I would never make u cry cry cry

Even though time flies life goes on

Truthfully, without u I cant move on

I can tell it’s u girl that I belong

So please understand baby im not strong

Life stinks, I don’t have anything

I only have u girl, u my everything

I cant rap, I cant sing but let me tell u 1 more thing

1 last thing I didn’t fling girl

Outro:

To forgive is a beautiful thing

Control ur emotion, it doesn’t have a brain

To forgive is a beautiful thing

Yeah I know u still feel the pain