LINZ SAID SO!!!

nee aishitara daremo ga konna kodoku ni naru no? nee kurayami yori mo fukai kurushimi dakishimeteru no? nani mo kamo ga futari kagayaku tame kitto. kimi o kimi o aishiteru. kokoro de mitsumete iru. kimi o kimi o shinjiteru samu yoru mo. nee koi shite mo dare ni mo itsuka owari ga kuru no? nee aozora yori mo sunda tokimeki sutete shimau no? kisetsu kawaru no kaze michi o hashiru zutto. tatoe ashita nakushite mo. anata o ushhinatte  mo dekiru kagagiri no egao de kayagakitai. namida de ima yobi kakeru. yakusoku nado iranai. kimi ga kureta taisetsu na tsuyoso dakara.

THATS ALL FOR TODAY!!!!

PS: YOURE A FCUKIN IDIOT!!!!

oh well again …
where do i start? last weekend, my friends swung ova ma place (handi, ari and robert) for a couple hours and guess what? hahahahahhahaha… these 2 friends, handi and ari, love to eat!! so you can imagine how they eat .. LOL … last weekend they ate a lot of things in ma place. theyre always funny … we shared our ghost stories and handi got tonz of it.

what else? monday is for cheap a** cinema!! hahahaha.. so we (me, robert, ari, rendy, marco and malik) went to artha gading to watch the reaping at 8.30pm. we were waiting for rendy and malik for ages. Hahahhahaa.. we went to eat in emergency minutes!! LOL .. bah … never mind but it was fun fun fun fun … yay, malik treats me as an exchange for his sin, for what he did to me. but honestly, i was just joking … But oh well, hahahaha.. gak nolak! I dont really talk to him though. ya biasa ajah lah … coz this would be our 2nd meeting and i havent known him like i know everyone else who hangs out with me.

in the cinema, ari sat next to me, once just he sat there for 5 mins, he was kinda jumped up from his couch. Hahahhaa.. I was so surprised, i thought somethin happened to him!! LOL .. malik was teasing him!!

then in front of us, there marco and rendy. in the middle of the scene, marco was screaming and jumped off as well!! Wakakakakkaaa… the funny thing was, when he did that, everyone was in silence, the cinema was silent. Wakakakkaa…

today i didnt talk a lot tho. yeah, my mood is still so fcukin a**!! bah .. there certain things that i cant write here… hahahahaha…  bah .. i cant write it here .. i cant write it here!! Hahahahhahahaa… so many odd things happened!!

anyways, i had a funny short story. i was online on MSN then ciyong messaged me and we were talking a bit. after that,  i asked his fone number and he gave me. so i texted him and guess what? silly ciyong! he called me from spore and asked, "who are you?" and i asked him back, "who are you?". he said, "ciyong" and i was like blah blah blah … and he started his funny habit, "elo di singapore?", i said, "kaga, di indo" then he replied me, "anjrit, kampret, gue kira elo di spore. roaming gila, and blah blah … I forgot what he said and in rush i hung up his fone so he wouldnt waste his credit!! Wakakakkakaa… funny ciyong! he is my funny friend.

i was writing that the other day i got a summer fling! hahahaha… but thats so fcukin impossible. but then again … theres another one …  to tell you the truth, he looks like someone i used to know. bahhhhhhhhh … aiyooooooo his style! DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN … but but but but but but … oh well, he looks like someoneeeeeeeeee in the past … my gosh! but this present one looks better!! wakakkakaa…. so similar ar!!! i cant write it down here …

thats all for today!! btw, daniel tinggi yak .. kek pas gue ketemu dia dulu!! cogannnn tp skrg jd jelek bgt!! kurus bgt!!!

PS: funny things here happened!! Hahahahahaha… mannnnnnn … avril lavigne’s new song is so good "girlfriend"… the most important

Hey! Hey! You! You!

I know that you like me

No way! No way!

No it’s not a secret

Hey! Hey! You! You!

I want to be your girlfriend

You’re so fine

I want you mine

You’re so delicious

I think about ya all the time

You’re so addictive

Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright?

Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious

Hell yeah

I’m the motherfcuking princess

I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me

And even when you look away I know you think of me

I know you talk about me all the time again and again

Now come over here, tell me what I want to hear

MY NEW GOSSIP:
The funny feeling I have … LOL … I wonder if I should have a crush or not! Hahahahhaa… Don’t you think I am too old for having a crush? I am not 17 anymore but … bah bah bah … I heard a lot about him and we met thru mutual friends. At first, I didn’t really pay attention on him but we did talk a bit. LOL Not until I realized that he’s what a damn good looking guy! Hahahahahhahahahaa… You know me, I sometimes talkative but in front of him, I cant even talk anymore. I wanted to know a lot about him but geez … whats wrong with me … I cant even move my tongue. The only thing I asked him was a stupid question! Hahhahahahahaa…. Every time we go out, I only look and admire at him (in front of him. Wakakakakkaa… I am sure he knows lah since he catches my eyes most of the time). The way he talks, the he walks, his cheeky smile, his facial expression. One day I realized he got sexy lips!! Well, if you like Angelina Jolie’s lips and you think her lips sexy, then you can imagine the male version of hers. Hahahahhaaa… I was like, damnnnnnnnnn … he’s hot! Mannnnnn … I CRUSH ON HIM!!! LOL! Aiyoooooo he is so cool ar!! I think I am too insane for this, I cant believe I am writing this … After a while, I just cant help myself every time I see him … I am just happy when I am just around him, just looking at him. Of course, we do talk by  now. However, I cant wait … I cant wait … I cant wait for that moment comes … S.E.C.R.E.T!! We’ll see lah what I can do (but I am not gonna do anything tho at the mo)… He is so fine and he is just so fcukin simple! But … I just wanna simply be friends due to certain things that I cant mention here! Of course lah he is just my 1st 2007’s crush!! It would be gone soon. Bah!! I never had any crush for ages! The last time I had when I was at High School! LOL … Sigh! But I am always excited about him. Ah well … I feel so funny now! Hahahhahahaa…

kimi ga tabidatsu hi wa itsumoto onaji iyaane to te wo futta marude ashita mo mata kono machi de au mitai ni ai wo shinjiruno wa
jibun ni mo makenaikoto yume ga kanau hi made egao no mama hoshi wo mite inori sasage koko ni irukara watashi wa kimi ni totte no sora de itai kanashimi made mo tsutsumikonde itsudemo miagerutoki wa hitori ja naito tooku de omoeru youni kaeru basho ga aru youni

hahahahahhaa.. anjinggggggggggggggg … beh ..  keren gak man?

By the way, I went out with my friends (robert, ari and ci-yong) today for kinda a farewell party for Ci-yong’s before he left for Singapore. We went to Sunter Mall, I had my KFC … yummie! I went back home to get my mom’s KFC take way. Keknya di boil, ci-yong sempet ceng in gue seperti biasanya mpe gue kesel en gue cubit lengannye. Hahahahhaa… Trus si ari ngoceh2 apa tauk sambil baca sinchan, gue nyeletuk, "ngomong apa sih loe, ri?".

then we went to Handi’s house for a bit then we moved to Marko’s house. I chit chat with Marko’s mom a lot. The boys (how many people? 7 I supposed) were playing games! I was in the living room. Then other guys came, kutu, amin, malik and aming. OK, you can guess how many people by now? Let me count, robert, ari, ci-yong, handi, marko, amin, malik, aming, kutu and the invisible man. We went to Gading’s restaurant and had a meal together! HAAHAHAHHAHAA… it was so so so so so damn hilarious how they ate a lot of things. They ordered a lot of rice and tea!! LOL … we had a long table!

Krn ci-yong duduk di dpn gue, beh … tampangnya yg polos die ceng-in gue lage soal nasi ato apa deh, lupa gue .. oh ttg kulit2 kerang ato apa deh yang gue taro di meja, bukannya meja. Tuh org malah seneng ceng-in gue lage. trus nanya hal yang kaga penting bgt soal ausi mobile, dia blg, "gue pake vodafone ah, biar kerennnnnnnnnnnnnnn manchester united!". trus gak tao deh dia ngoceh2 gak penting .. ahhahahahaa …  Trus gue keki ngeliat dia maenin jambang rambut dia, udah kek apaan, gue suruh  kepang! Wakakakkakaa… pengen gue gunting ngeliatnya!

Lalalalallalalalalallalaa….. Nape yeh ada 2 org temen gue kalo ngoceh tuh gak nyambung abessss …. napa juga mase ada yang jaim2 gak karuan! hahahahaha…

What else? Ah well, I had fun fun fun fun fun …

Beh … rame mannnnn .. sabtu maren nonton ninja turtles: gue, robert, ari, handi, ci-yong, marko ama cw nye, denny, amin and plus the invisible man. kocak juga anak2… gue ngakak 1/2 mati terutama kalo ngeliat gaya dodolnya handi … dia kalo ceng in org tuh jari telunjuk isa nunjuk2 (gue gak isa jelasin tp kocak bgt)… kocak abesssssss!! trus si ci-yong kalo becanda tuh bahasa dewa nya kuar semua en ceplas ceplos abisssssssssssssss!! byangin pas denny lagi maen time crisis 4 ama si robet. ci-yong di sebelah denny maki2 dgn bhs dewa suruh dia tembak ke arah mana en sudut mana. gue sampe ngakak, gila dah tuh anak. trus pas maen mario bros geto, beh … si ci-yong cuek abes ama kanan kiri, dia langsung maen. ya jelas dia yang menang krn dia dah tau cara maennya. yang lebih kocak pas kita mo pulang, si denny nanya ke robert, "kok elo tau bayar 7rebu?" (maksudnye parkiran). trus dengan santai nya ci-yong blg, "ituuuuuuu liattttt 7rebuuuuuuuu" (sambil nunjuk ke box tix parkiran yg ada tulisan 7rebu". maklum deh ya denny bukan anak jakarta. trus pas lewatin la piazza, dia nanya gue, "eh itu la piazza ya". hahahahhaa.. gue bilang, "iya!". gue pas pegi noh .. gue gak tidur seharian, cuman tidur 2 jem trus gue dah 1.5 hari melek .. ahahhahahaha… pas pulank kaga isa tepar man!

keknya kalo kita2 cabs tuh makanya bykkan KFC deh! sedapppppppppppppp!!! slurpssssss!! yoi mannnnn crispy!! LOL … lama2 muke gue bkalan kek KFC dah!! hahahahaha… always forever dah!! gue jd ketagehan gene! buset dah.. salah sapa mannnnnnn….

duh … maren2 (sebelom sabtu maren) gue juga pegi ama anak2, ada si robert, ci-yong trus ada ari gak yeh? gue lupa! hahahahaa.. cemen dah gue amnesia gene … kita ngapain yeh? wahhhhh kaga inget … oh iyeh minggu maren, yg pas kita2 nonton mr. bean … beh … maen ke rumah ari, si ci-yong ma ari maen WE gak kira2 … but it was fun to see them crazy just like that.

trus tadi ke mangdu ama robert, ari, ci-yong and the invisible man. kita nemenin ci-yong beli smallville after dgn norak en kocaknye plus lagaknyeeee yang blagu (becanda doank lah) pas gue tawarin smallville gue, dia blg: "gue maunyaaaa beliiiiiiii". mukeeeeeee abesssssss ….

anak2 bilang si ci-yong campuran korea, setelah gue perhatiin ternyata muke nye emank korea abesssss .. bener2 ciri khas korea! kocak abes! pas di mangdu, si robert kuarin 1 DVD korea en bilang, "neh ci-yong neh, mirip kan?" (sambil nunjukkin aktor korea yang di cover DVD). dodol abes dah!! trus nemenin si ci-yong beli game entah apaan, gue kaga ngarti, trus krn gak ada, dia jdnye beli DVD the sims!! hahahahahaha…  dgn culunnye dia kebingungan kok label DVD nya part 1 semua, trus si robert jelasin kalo itu kga penting bgt. hahahaha…. culun abeees dah si ci-yong.

kadank2 gue sendiri isa ngakak ngeliat kelakuan mereka semua, rasanya hepi juga gak ada kesedihan sama skale. bakalan panjang deh kalo di ceritain ttg ciri khas en kegilaan masing2 plus tampang2 mrk yg kadank lucu bgt, isa bikin gue ngakak. gaya mrk ngomong tuh beh .. gokil2 … entah lah … kalo gue marah2, langsung isa reda kalo di hibur mrk. emosi gue paling susah di kontrol, tpi mrk ini super lucu. dari gue marah2, isa ketawa lage.

tp nanti keknya bakalan ada kekurangannya kalo ci-yong ke melben, trus si handi juga. yoi mannnnnn … soalnya mrk ini paling gila kalo becanda…

trus these a few weeks byk kasus terjadi … keknya seh crita lengkapnya cuman gue en ijukkkkkkkkkk yang tauuuuuuuu … after all, i decided to give that cupu a huge fcuking serve!! haahhahahaa.. taek lah … after all juga i told ijuk everything, about the secrets … udah lah mannnn skakmat abis. gue udah kaga mo bikin another episode drama! LOL .. cieeeeeee .. gaya man gue!! kg tau yeh, td tuh udah kek versi sinetron!! hahahahahaa… itu lah skakmate dr gue, the final serve dari gue en the one and only pembasmian.

endingnya ya geto mah … trus krn ada update an baru en ijuk crita. ijuk cuman comment, "nasi sudah menjadi bubur" en gue blg, "ember, beh … udah telat abis en kaga penting. kg bakalan gue anggep lage, skale anjing udah tetep anjing!". hahahahahhaa…. trus ijuk blg, "sabar, lin! tar kempot loe ilang!!". hahahaha… gak nyambung dah! kadank gue kalo dah keki sendiri, udah emosi bgt, si ijuk ini juga isa redain kok.

as i always say, "IF AN APOLOGY WAS ENUFF, WE WOULDNT NEED THE POLICE". so what i meant was, NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY TO ASK A FCUKIN FORGIVENESS FROM ME OR FIX THE THINGS OR TURN THE FCUKIN THINGS RIGHT, YOU WONT GET ANYTHING EVEN IF YOU BEG DOWN ON YOUR KNEES!! itu ajeh man number one rule nye!! keknya seh gak perlu yeh kalo udah di ulang2 mulu!

lagi seru2nya heroes mannnnnn…. lalalalalallalalaa… btw, byk crita! hahahahaha.. gue lupa bow!! kbykkan makan KFC neeeeeee…. tapi gue lage kangen ama byk org neh …. those ppl yang special in my heart lah … yang udah stick together with me thru good and bad times. i enjoyed those days and i still love ya guys!  you know who you are lah coz i cant mention each name here (does it mean, i got heaps of friends? hahahahaha)… i miss youuuuuuu … esp my mini moeeee… i love ya, i love ya, i love ya, i love ya, i love ya …. thanks for everything, thanks for taking good care of me during ma fcukin down time and when i was sick. trus sapa lage yah .. the only guy who has been with me for 10 years lah more or less, you’ll always be in my heart forever. coz thats the day when i met you and i fell for you … cieeee … youre so so so so so special. who else? mmmmmm … my moooooooooooo …. im happy for you … trusssss… for that special damn person who is so fcukin funny yang lagi di luar negri… ive been waiting for you … ada dehhhhhhhh ….. hahahahaha….

im so fcukin busy mannnnnnn … i cant even manage my time when i have to hang out with this friend and that friend, my family and so on… god damnit!! hahahahahahaa… so many friends that i havent got time to catch up with yet. gosssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! what else?

thats all for today… gue lupa seh!! hahahahahahahha….

beh .. kaga ada kerjaan gene… well for those fcukin teachers lah yang udeh keknya dulu ngehina gue mentang2 gue murid paling bandel, tukang bolos, males, gak pernah merhatiin apa pun di kls, dll … bah!!! LOL … I finished my undergraduate (S1) dlm waktu 2.5 years IN AUSTRALIA!!! LOL … bedebah!!! I also graduated from other courses faster than you guys thought!!! Ini neh …  salah 1 dosen Atmajaya yang udah ngehina gue di klsnye yg pernah ngeledek English gue. pdhal dosennye yg budek gak bisa bedain spelling english H and X then nyalahin gue!! WTF mannnnnn … dosen yang blagu mentang2 pernah skola di ausi!! what the fcuk lah mannnnnnnnnnnnnn fcukin shiet my english that time was better than yours cuman gue kaga mo pamer ajeh n never made any sound of it… senga abes dah tuh dosen, ke ausi gak lama ajeh udah blagu abessssss!!! mendingan gue donk!! LOL … skrg gue mah terbahak2! SKRG JILAT BALIK DAH KATA2 YANG UDAH DI LONTARKAN KE GUE!!! bah!!! senjata makan tuan!! LOL …

plus dengan ketololan inet indo plus broadband connectionnye. bah!! gue jd ketinggalan info gene!! dgn taek2nya semua sinetron and acara2 aneh di tv indo yang terpaksa gue tonton krn kamar gue gak ada TV cable, bah … taek lahhhhh … telat abessssss dah kerjaan gue! dengan monyet2 yang bilang area gue gak masuk cable, bah!! gene neh skrg gue dengan LIMIT 3GB ADSL telkom plus ketololan sistem mrk, teknisi berserta bangke2nya… BODOH semua!!! dengan harga2nya yang kaga nyambung dgn limit GB nya, bah bah bah bah bah!!!! taek abes!!! kapan ini negara isa maju  mannnnnnnn ….

di tambah salah satu manusia cupu yang gue kenal .. alamakkkkkkkkkk … mati saja lah dirimuuuuuuuuuu … bener2 manusia yang gak bergunaaaaa … mikir maju napeh buat diri sendiri ama negaraaaaaaaa … anjrit!!! maksud gue masa depan, dodol! yah sudahlah .. apa boleh buat, itu manusia udah terlahir en di takdirkan punya idup peyang2…. udah cupu, bokis pulaaaaaaa!!! asli botak terkikis!! mukee….

UUUUUUMMMMMMM … udah gitu dulu!! hahahahaaha.. taek lah .. hari libur geneeeeeeeeeeeeee …

She picked up the phone and dialed his number, he was in the couch sleeping. He woke up, looked at the screen who was calling and …. (DTI)

She says, "I hope you’re doing OK with your band aid. I know you can cure your forehead with a band aid but you can cover your scar with it. But I am still hoping you’re gonna CHEER UP!!!". (DTI)

He just smiled and he thought, "The person that cried in my embrace. The person who was born because of me. I give up everything to protect you. To me you are another reason to live. The person who cried when I trashed my life. The person who cried just as much as me. Again it flows out, at my heart, at my love, it hurts. Even if its a thousand times, just once my love is for you. In on step we both stop and my heart becomes a tear. A thousand times, for just one day give me the chance to hold your hand. In such way, these are my remains, when I call, please stay with me for just that one time. With such weary love you are the person that smiles, that smiles without
      me. Even as I endure this agony, my love is happy. Even as I live wearily, as the days go by, whoever it is that I love. I still have no regrets, because you are the only one for me". (JJ)

      
      
      

Her thought, "Graduated school, put on a necktie for the first time. And Im sitting in this place on the streets of our school. The stories going around the drinks on the table. We took out our past dreams of the old days. How long has it actually been? You changed so unexpectedly. But if time takes us away. We become our old selves. I always thought of you. Whenever we encountered the hardships of this world. The first thing that popped up in my mind was you. Ten years later, even if we forget those ten years. Lets hope our hearts will never change. You say you’re in love and you take out a picture. You laugh as you talk about her. I am happy for you as I look at you. I hope you never meet separation and shed tears. I will hope for a happy love with her. You are always in my world and in my time. Something that makes my heart burn. Is the word, "friend" that will always be there. I always thought of you. Its so good that you are here. We will always be friends. We were always together with our dreams. We went to different worlds. But we were always together". (PHS)

His thought, "To death, I, to death, the memories of loving you to death keep hurting
        me like a deep nightmare I can’t push away. Like crazy, I, like crazy, miss you like crazy my heart might explode.
        But if I can’t have you in the end, please erase me from this hard world.
        Afterwards I felt the same pain as if time had stopped. Now I guess I must live on with the pain I’ve gotten so used to. I’ve got to erase you no matter what it takes, I’ve got to forget you.
        I made a pact, but when I think of you I really feel foolish. If I could see you for a day, for just a day, I think I could let go of the thorn that’s left of you. Without you, breathing for just a day is too hard that I can’t live.
      (SA)

She says, "I Love Him so much it hurts but we’re just friends now!".

He says, "I have been loving her since the day I met her for the first time. But why it turned out to be like this, that we’re just friends now?".

… ONLY GOD HEAVEN KNOWS WHY …

PS: As I always say, if you really do love someone and you choose not to be with that person due to numerous fcukin reasons that youre not able to explain by your own or whatever, you gotta let that person go. If I ever really do hurt you (which I did), I am sorry. The only thing that I can do is hurting you more and more for the rest of your life so the hateness will grow in me bigger and bigger and I am able to forget and erase you quickly. Thanks for the love that I am able to return but I prefer not to. Coz if I do, you would get hurt. I am sorry the reason why I did this coz I dont want you to get hurt. I HOPE YOU CAN COVER YOUR SCAR IN YOUR HEART. PLEASE CHEER UP!!! SORRY, I CANT BE YOUR BAND AID LOVE TO CURE THE PAIN OF YOUR HEART!!! As If I do, again… I prefer not to … Please just forget about me like I would forget about you too. Please just erase me like I would erase you too even though it’s hard. I did erase you once and I cant make another story with you again although I can, we could be only just friends!!!

THEN AGAIN … I HAD TO LIE TO MYSELF, YOU, AND THE WORLD ABOUT THE FACT! mwahahahhahahahahahhaa… elo nulis apa sih? gak jelasssssss … SAMA, GUE JUGA GAK NGERTI!!!! EGP!!!

Me back.. me back!! its been a while again since the last time i wrote previous one (LOL … I guess, I say this sentence too much). Last month, so many things happened!! Honestly, I forgot what they were!!

That day, 2 of my friends asked me to go to IBII campus that which is pretty close to my house. I was sitting in the canteen while waiting for the other friend. I didnt believe what I saw when I was talking with my friend there. THAT  GUY … The guy I used to like and adore so much 10 years ago. I wasnt so sure it was him or not. But he was just like 5 steps in front of me and my eyes was looking at him all the time. But I didnt approach and ask him. Sigh … Maybe that guy was a different guy. But they look like twins tho, or maybe it was him?

The way he walks, the way he talks, that familiar facial expression, his stupid glasses … sigh … I noticed that bracelet around his left handed waist. I remember, every day he always wears it. I thought it was only my dejavu…

Honestly, deep inside me .. I have been always wished to have a chance to see him again after 8 years gone by like this … Just to see him, it would be enough for me. 8 years and I think I just did blew the chance to do the reunion!! LOL … However, I have finished my last duty. I was glad!!! I feel free … Hahahha!! FCUKIN HELL from JKT TO MELB, MELB TO PRT, PRT TO KL, KL TO JKT!!! hahahahaa… How far would I go for love? I did it too far, JKT TO MELB only lah and 6 years wasted time!!! Oh yeah, love was blind that time!! But I was glad i did it!!! Hooray me!!!

What else? Yup, I hung out sometimes with my friends tho just to have stupid junkie food, malls, movies and so on!! Hahahahahaha… The other day, my mom invited two of my friends to have late lunch!! Mwahahahhaaa… Thats all … then my friend pranked my old skool mate on the fone which turned out very funny. We laughed so hard!! Wakakkakakaa….

LOL… my old skool friend said that, "it’s really hard, hey to reach you, you seemed so busy!!". Oh yeah .. busy!!! I was so busy, indeed!!!

YAY!!! We’re gonna catch Mr Bean perhaps!! LOL … Unsure yet!! Uuuummmm… what else?

I went to Tony Roma’s a lot!! hahahahaha.. god damn my appetite!! Oh yeah, I fell sick these 2 days!!! sux!!! Sigh!!!

Thats all.. coz I forgot anything else to right.