LINZ SAID SO!!!

Sometimes I wonder if I am too nice …

Sometimes I wonder if I aint cruel at all …

Sometimes I wonder if I am able to be the opposite of those …

Sometimes I wonder if I am able to be more that that …

There was a time that I started to stop to be a nice person

There was a time that I started to be a cruel person

There was a time that I started to not care about other people

There was a time that I started to “unforgivable” people

Sometimes I wonder those people are able to be cruel
and act like a shit.

Sometimes I am upset but oh well … what for?

Because if they are able to do so then
I am able to be one as well

Is it just another sign of revenge or I put hold on grudge?

The answer is NO
If people are not nice, so why would
I act to be nice since
during all the time I have been the nicest person

Honestly, I have been stopped to be that kind of “nice person”

But after all I am just a human being …

There no one in this world would feel any satisfaction

I wonder why there a lot of people who are able to
take
other people’s advantages without thinking
if one day happens
to them, what would they do?

wouldn’t be that silly?
BECAUSE THEY ARE SO STOOOOOOOPPPPPIIIIIIIIDDD!!!

I guess, the only good friend of yours would be your own self

Your biggest enemy would be your mirror, your shadow

But the real enemy is people around you who undercover
on your
blanket which anytime able to stab your back

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Just a thought of mine when I ponder under the sky …  hopefully I aint started to be a monk!
LOL! Today I had ma yum cha in da morning around 10.30AM! Yesterday I went to bed
about 6.30AM and gotta wake up at 10AM n got ready as soon as possible! Aaaahhhh … it
feels so good coz its been a long time since da last time I had ma yum cha!! Hehehee…
I am kinda missed it! Ah well … after that I went here and there before finally I headed to home.
I ate a lot food!! Mwahahahahhahahaa …. Every one had their ice creams except me … coz
I aint interested on ice creams although I wanted to have green tea but I am lazy to eat it!
Oh yea, that’s me! I am the only person who is lazy to eat when I am not in a good mood!
But after I got back home, I had ma food and blah blah blah … LOL I ate so many! I so then
watched TV and started to get sleepy [well, I had a long damn convo before that]… But I couldn’t
sleep well coz I got distracted of something … it was getting late and I started to feel hungry again.
So I made a fone call for a bit and waited for an hour or so before I had ma dinner. Mmmm…
another goodie to eat … hkahkahakahkahkahakaa…. Booooo hoooooooooooo … I think, that’s all
for today because its all about food. Mmmmmmm … tomorrow I am gonna get something
Different to eat!! LOL… I am just happy!

wwwwwooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooooooo … FINALLY 2MORO GOTTA GET MA YUM CHAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! UUUUUUUMMMMMMMMM ITS BEEN SO LONG!! WAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAA…. WHAT ELSE? THESE DAYS I WATCHED A LOT OF MOVIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!! SO FREAKIN HAPPY!!! AH … LIFE IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!! SHIET MANNNNNNNN … I GUESS, I EAT A LOT AS WELL!!! BAH!! DUNNO WHY IM JUST THIS HAPPY … EVERYTHING SEEMS SO YUMMY FOR ME!!! HAKHAKHAKAHKAHKAHAKHAKA…. YUM CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA …  HERE I AM COME TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ….

here we go again … right now im so tired and i cant imagine that i am able to open my eyes anymore aka im so fcukin sleepy! but every time i lay down ma head on ma pillow, close ma eyes and all i find is that i keep on pondering a lot of things in ma life. i got ma fcukin video IPOD ages ago, but i aint really into it coz most of da time i spend ma time with ma tiny mp3 player that i bought more than 2 years ago. but lately, ive been spending time with ma ipod hoping that i would fall asleep soonish.

yknow … sometimes i wonder how ppl change just like that from A to Z into a different personality that we’ve been known for ages. as much as i hate to say this, sometimes i do wonder if i really do need forgive em or tell em to fcuk off n get a life. but momma always tells me that i should forgive ppl, friends told me so as well but myself? NO! NEVER!! yknow why? coz i got ma specific fcukin reason for this. there was a fcukin shiet time that i gave up to forgive ppl. there was a time i stopped to be da fcukin nice person in this world. i aint change at all but yet ppl around me changed whether they realized it or not. but the most thing i hate about is how they change into a fcukin idiot rather than to be a better person. i aint give a shiet as well although the fact i hate the reality, i gotta admit it.

i aint know why ppl get what ya called envy or jealousy of ma life. they thought i got everythin that they always wanted in life. but the way they show their fcukin ass envy is totally fcukin me nuts and i totally disgrace how they shiet myself n life til i so wanted to bash em! i dont understand, indeed, how they fcukin put their brain in their head!! i wonder if they still have brain and heart in their life. but i reckoned, they aint got nothing except a bunch of shitless mind n heart!

i aint write this as a teaser or whatever but the fact, i am tryin to insult a few ppl that ive known for fcukin ages and almost all ma life and theyve been acting like a bunch a rubbish!!! when i said rubbish, it means theyre totally fcukin shiet!!! when i said rudely, then yknow what i meant!!!

i wonder why so many fcukin hypocrite ppl, when they stand in front of ya, they would say fcukin nice things about ya n lick ya asses then on yer back, they would turn yer life into 180 degrees with their fcukin ingredients of da culinary when ya know you got nothin wrong and you dont know anythin about it (its ok, if ya upset other ppl but this example is for an innocent human being), if ya know what i mean? what da fcuk mannnnn??? i wonder why their purpose by doing that? what are they trying to prove? they try to shiet me? alrite, ya all got me but one thing ya dont earn from me, that is mercy and yknow what? i just wanna say, FCUK OFF N GET A FCUKIN BETTER LIFE BEFORE YA TRY TO DESTROY OTHER PPL’S LIFE mannnnnn!!! get a better job rather than pick other ppl’s business and private life!

i aint need to mention who you are or yer fcukin family!!!! but from this, ya know what i meant!!! who dya think you are? no matter what ya do, you aint gonna get da chance to make ma life shiet like a rollercoaster but all ya got is i got better life than you do!!

btw, since i got nu hair cut and style! shiet … im so fcukin happy with it! i got tonz of dvds to kill ma time mannnn!!! for sure, ppl are ponderin around where da fcuk ive been gone … hahahaa… def, im still here … as usual, im just lil bit enjoyin ma own world ya know? i’ll tell ya later when im done hahahahaa…

im hoping to get a nu mobile fone soonish coz mine is da fcukin oldish one with a freakin shiet battery!! hahahaa… today i just bought a nu battery for ma shiet fone!! sigh … after all … well, yknow when u got da shiet battery and almost broken, u aint able to make/receive a call!! hahahahaa…

gotta shout out loudly to edc and those hommies yknow who you are esp. [7] … mannnnnnn … i miss ya!! hahahahaa… thats so fcukin old skool and i so cant wait to see ya mannnnnn!!!

take care ya’all!!

bah!! so many ppl so fcukin bullshieting!!! oh well, i aint interested on em at all!! btw, cant believe that EDC is a kind of guy who can get upset and freakin pissed off as well!! hahahahaha… i wonder how he looks like when he gets mad!

aaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww … i cant sleep well these days!!! ive been back to da past and had a lot of thoughts!! but now its ok! LOL … i often get upset on certain thing as well! coz i just knew there 2 ppl who fcukin pissed me off!! hhauhuahuahuahuahuauuaa… but dear, who cares? who gives a shiet?

yay!!!! didnt i write before that i had a nu hair cut last week? ah so happy!!! huahuhahauhuahauhuahuahuaua…

auk ah geleps!!! gue jd lupa mo nulis apaan!!! sial!!!

PRESENT TIME

20 JULY 2007

sigh … do you remember when i used to like one guy called 206cc aka DC alias [7]? do you remember how i was into HK guys and he became one of ma fave guys? do you remember what i used to write? it was happened when i was still at uni and honestly, i never forget about him at all because we’re still good friends until now. yes, we lost in touch for almost 2 years and we’re good friends! but due to so many things happened … we lost our moments as friends … it was just drifted apart just like that. i was never thought that all of sudden he called me this morning out of no where and i just knew that he changed his number and wondering why he still kept ma number. aaaaaaaarrrrrrggggggggg … yknow when i was at uni i crushed on him for almost 2 years and i was waiting for him just like that. but there was a moment that i stopped to wish for everything and moved on with my life and i did and its been 3 years and so. i did move on!

but i dont know why last month i had a thought of him and called him, but it seemed he changed his number. it was a coincidence? then i emailed him but he never replied. yes, he is a typical that guy who never reply emails and text messages unless you call him! hahahahhaa… of course i remember his good and bad habit. it was written all over ma head for ages.

honestly, my head was wondering around sometimes about him, "where da heck diz guy gone?". hahahhaa… coz i dont know why i still remember our silly moments esp. when he pranked me all the time when we caught up. but yknow what? I REMEMBER HIM BECAUSE HE HASNT RETURNED MA LIMITED EDITION BOOKS AND I REALLY WANTED THEM BACK!!!!

bwakakakkakakaa… yknow when da first time i met him back in da day of 2002-2003 (i cant exactly recall), i was such a punk head but i was glad that he still wanted to be friends. i remember when he did his stupid things around my house, what else? pranked me! we had our dinners, games and so on.

the last time we met was around 2005, i think, in that our fave japanese restaurant. i dont know why i was that cold when i met him, not to mention that i had a bf as well. so, i turned off that flame for fcukin ages already.

it was funny, hey, our friendship? yes, i know he was kinda liked me as well, but just i never dare to response on him at all thru the years coz i never confessed anythin on him while he thought i never liked him. hahahaha … maybe i was happy enuff with our friendship and i dont know why all thru the years he has been single. hahahahhaa… but now since we lost in touch for ages, i guess he is a married guy already!! i havent asked him at all, but later we’ll catch up and talk a lot of things. you’ll see how it goes …

do you think i still like him? im so overed him! mannnnnn … but it was funny yeah … bah!! i aint gonna write it here, coz it was bloody funny!!! sometimes i really wish we would have our stupid moments back when i really hated him coz he always pranked on me all the time. it was just like High School years, not to mention when he said, "i like one girl, but he hates me!!!".

from all of the guys i met in ma life, i just never remorse that i met him. thats so odd!! our friendship moments gone for ages but we’re still good friends, forget about this and that all around us.

nah … time has changed … i aint back to where when i was stuck on him. it was just memories that i aint able to erase no matter how hard i try to forget. i would erase the most hurt memories in ma life but im just not able to forget our memories. hahahaha…

right now, i am happy, indeed and i also cant wait to catch up with him. mannnnnn … i wonder how he looks like now, that silly stupid guy!! bwakakkakakakaa … sigh .. he is a good guy but i dont know why i hated him for ages … maybe i was just trying to hate him in the past while my heart said the opposite way? well, it was just an old skool memories.

well, at least i still have a friend every time i get back to melbourne. so yeah, he moved to singapore for 2 years coz he opened a new office there, hahahaha… yknow what? singapore is so fcukin close to indo. so when i wanna travel to spore, i still have a few friends there including him although well … i dont like spore! hahahaha… i meant, not one of my fave countries tho.

fcuk that mannnnnnnnnnn …. ok, thats all!!! coz when i wrote that SPORE word, i remember something else .. i remember what that uncle told me last year!! bwakakakaka …

boooo hoooooooo … he would be surprise when he see me, coz i got ma fcukin long hair now while ages ago, i had ma punk hair!! wakakkakakaa… time line has changed, as i always say but i aint never change.

well, i gotta go know. damnnnnn ……….

fcuk that now im havin diz odd feelings!! hahahahaa…

kata temen2 gue: "males banget deeeeeeeee … ngapain ngurusin org kek geto? mendingan elo ngurusin yang laen! gak penting bgt!!".

gue sambil bengong2, "bener juga! ngapain gue pusingin? tapi herannya gue pusingin tauuuuuuuu krn gue penasarannnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!".

ngakak2 … trus kata temen gue atu lage, "ah kalo gue jadi elo mah, kalo perlu gue cabs ajeh! pusing amat!’.

asli, nyet, gue dah beneran kaga mikirin, tapi kok otak gue pikirannya lari kemane2 … gak jelassssssss … sebenernye seh gue mesti mikirin kerjaan gue yang laen2 … tapi akher2 ini otak gue ada gangguin jiwa … konslet, dodol!!! ga jelas kan gue nulis apaan juga … krn inti permasalahannya gue kaga ngarti juga bow ….

trus temen2 laen blg, "sabaaaaarrrrrrr!! positive thinking ajah!!! sapa tau … blah blah blah … "

gue cuman berkeluh kesah, "gazebooooooo .. cape deeeeeeeeee"

cupuuuuuuuuuuuuu mannnnnnnnnnnnn ….
gue dah bakalan tau hasilnya bakalan kek geneeeeeeee ….
temen apaan yak kek begeneeeeeeeeee ….
sebenernye dah dare maren gue anggep history ajeh ….
buang2 waktu gue ajah …
buang pulsa hp …
buang biaya inet …
buang biaya laptop gue …
buang duit …
buang tenaga …
buang segala macem …
bener2 mulut itu beda ama kelakuan …
nah skrg yg mo gue tanyain …
ngapain gue sewot begenean?
ngapain gue pusingin?
bwakakkakakakaa … itu namanya bawa bencana, dodol!
sebenernye gue gak sewot …
cuman kesel ajeh …
hare gene mannnnnnn masa ada org kek getoooo …
gue kira dah over bgt org2 model begeneeee …
tapi gue rasa di mane2 pasti adaaaaa …
hahhahahaa…. byk org muna, bow!
ya udeh gue juga ga jelas bgt deh …
cape deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ….

capeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ….

geez! i think imma gettin sick of the songs on ma car that i play most of da time. of coz, i got some other cds to play on, too but i think as usual, i never satisfied at all. coz once i like one song or lets say a few, then i’ll listen to it like a nutter!!! in a day, i can play it whole day from the day i wake up til i sleep again. but this time is kinda different … ah well, i dont wanna explain it coz imma pretty lazy. ive been away for away though. aaaarrrgggg … for me, its like forever. ma silly mate hasnt figured out how hes gonna go to ma house!! i just never heard anyone that dont know where to go when he drives except the area around his house. so today, i told him again after so many times, "mannn you gotta find a way to get your ass to ma house!". hahahahaha… these days ive been so damn lazy!!! i dunno why!!! i just wanna get ma ass on ma bed and sleep, maybe the weather? or im starting to turn out to be a bear? hahahahahhahahahaa…. again, the boredom syndrome has been attacking me!! i went here and there, ate here and there, movies here and there, talking here and there, bah … not much happened… im just freaking bored!! BORED mannnnnn!!!! some mates were text messaging me to see if i was doing alrite or not and i really appreciated! but every day most of the time, i only talk to ma mate, thats all .. well, esp these a few days … before i went to bed i only told him, "im bored, i wanna go for a movie!!!" and he replied me in a funny way. i fell asleep twice then as same as twice i woke up coz i had an odd dream! i had this kind of dream last month and then i just had it now. would it be a sign? no? hahahahahahahhahahaa…. this is really funny … nah never mind, you wont understand if i write it down here. btw, last month i ate 4 k-movies in a day! hahahahahahaha… see, i was so fcukin bored as well!! LOL … all of em were so sad and i almost bursted to tears!!! yeah, one of em was from a popular k-novel and i only read it half a bit coz i thought it wasnt that interesting though tonz of ppl said it was very good. so then when the movie was out like 3 years ago, i so wanted to buy the movie but that time was too fcukin expensive. hahahahaa… so i bought it 3 years later and damnnnnnnnnn … although they cut so many scenes, well it was so goooooooodddddd!! i wish the movie was longer though … sigh … i dont know that ppl around me has changed or it was just me who stuck to be the same person and personality all thru the years. i guess, it was just me!!! so, do i need to accept the fact that i aint change at all and ppl around me changed? bwakakkakaa… mannnnnnn i dont know what im talking about!! LOL … it was just a random thing on ma mind coz im so damn bored when im writing this plus im so starving and nothing else to eat!! i had many snacks and biscuits but im hungry again!! LOL .. guess, i gotta wait til morning comes and it would like 3-4 hours to gooooo!!! i went out today and i bought a lot of food but when i got home … bah … an event happened and i was so upset so then i reluctant to eat a.k.a i lost ma appetite!! moooooooooooo…. so many movies are waiting and i so cant wait to see em! 2moro is gonna be ma lazy day again coz its monday and … and … im lazy!!!

EDC gotta nu shiet goin on -D&G- thingy plus Cartier
since hes a fan of that brand. he gotta nu pix.
not much happened here except da nu shiet event has happened
and it was so hella funny as i told ma mate about it.
guess, i just pranked ma mate coz i was pretty shiet about
the event that he did last thursday. well, it wasnt literally
a prank or whatsoever but i just told him somethin to
serve him back!! the funniest thing was he never realized
that what he did last thursday was the thousand times that
made me upset. honestly, i had enuff of it though and this kind
of human being is really got thick face.
anyways, i might gonna go to get ma hair cut and tryin what
ya called it as -rebonding- hohohohoho … we’ll see how it goes!
today i went out with ma empty stomach and i was starving to
death. we turned around here and there, everything was closed.
then after all, we got this odd curly noodles and the bbq pork
was too salty. bah!!!! no taste at all. oh well… coz i was too
damn starving, so i finished all that big bowl noodle!! when
i returned to ma car, lol … i was so full, i felt like i wanted to sleep.
then we gone round n round again … bought this and that.
after that, we went back home. once i got home, i was too tired and
i fell asleep!! hahahahahaa… but hell yeah, i had a ghost came to me
when i was sleeping. hahahahahaa… its not an odd thing anymore
since that often happens to me. thats what you called 6th sense. when
i knew i got it, my life has changed forever til now.
well, guess i gotta wrap this again!!

wooooooooo hoooooooooooooooooooooooooo
just came back from harry potter!!
oh yeah.. hell yeah … fcukin awosome since
i was sitting in da shiet corner, on da 5th row
from the bottom!!! hahahahahaha….
cos thats the last rows on that session
booooo hooooo FULL!!!
ma neck was like a shiet!! lucky i was pretty
quick on da queue coz there tonz of ppl on ma
behind like every secs!
lucky next to me there 2 handsome korean guys!!
hahahahahahahahaha….
thats all for today!! bwakakkakakaka ….