LINZ SAID SO!!!

I am grateful that no matter how far myself, all ma friends are still around. thru an unexpectable event a few days ago and only a few friends knew this, it felt soooo good when some unexpectable friends cheered me up. i thanked them for this. aaaahhh … i miss all my friends!!

yesterday i chatted with one of ma oldest classmates, movi. we talked some kind a lot. i always remember him coz he helped my essay when i had to resubmit coz i was on my first year and i was so dumbed doing the essay thingy (after that i was soooo damnnn good, sort of mannnn). he helped me to fix some error paragraphs!! hahahaha… its been so ages since the last time we caught up, i think more than 5 years. he gave me his mobile and he wanted to catch up before i leave. yup, he changed his number coz a few years ago, i tried to contact him but oh well, number has changed.

i also got a chance to talk with other oldest classmates!! hahahaha… some are still in melbourne and theyre still alive. oh well … it seems like in half of this world, i still have many friends. i gotta say worldwide!!??? hahhahahaa … sometimes remembering old days time makes me smile! looking back to all those old pictures, hahahhaa.. i was sooo happy and freak!! LOL … oh well, i am also happy now but i think i was happier than now!! however, i cant complain coz so many years gone by and of course i grown up differently as well, the way i think and every aspects of my life, family and friends.

just a few days ago i gotta a chance to watch death note (first and 2nd), the live movie action and it was so damn good!! i only watched the anime half way and although i got the manga, i havent read em at all!! hahahhaa… what a crap?

as i am writing this, i am totally feel like i left my heart in jtown and locked there and i cant wait to go back!! hahahahhahaa… do you wanna know why? nah .. its not da right time to say!! LOL …

anyways, this is for all ma friends:

1. MC
shes my only greatest friend ever!! forever!!! i always share everything with here, from movies, drinks, hang outs, foods and so on. sometimes she can be so silly and what you called "lemot" but i dont know why i always feel like i dont know what to do if shes not around. shes like ma big sis and although i gotta admit sometimes i can be so damn childish when i put ma brain into ma knee (doing something without thinkin) and how im so careless with everything around me, there she is .. she is always around. theres no secret around us. i always enjoy spend time with her and hang out!! hahahahahaa … i love yaaaa!!! hope we’ll be like this forever but nothings forever … sigh … shes so damn patient!!! no one can replace her plus ive been knowin her like almost for all ma life. thank you …

2. JC
i think ive known him since i was elementary school and i cant really recall how i knew him! he is also the greatest friend ever. hes always be there for me ups and downs although he is not literally around me all the time, but when i call him, he would be there for me. sometimes i might forget about him but honestly, its just something in my life that makes me to ignore everyone including him. in my heart  or mind, i always remember him. he might not able to give me all answers that i wanna hear but i learnt a lot from him. so, thanks to you, thanks for being that good friend.

3. JK
no matter how far … no matter where we are … we’ll be like this always forever!! thank you! i cant even describe about you. youre the good friend, youre the one who also cheers me up when im down, youre the first person who knows my happiness when i am happy, we have our crazy moments and everything we did in the past. i cherish our friendship. just sometimes i wish you were here …

4. KK
wasnt it odd how met a couple years ago? hahahaa.. we were not even close before but until now i cant even recall how we became close friends ever since i never forget about you! i do miss our freak days!!! we will meet again!! hahaha… every time i got so many shiet problems, i always run to her!! LOL … somehow, her advices make me so calm!! yummy …

5. CL
he is a friend who ive known for sort of 5 years. he was the one who stood by my side when i was on ma lowest point of ma life. he was the one who cheered me up thru those days!! he would take me out for movies, eating, walking around and so on to cheer me up and tried to make me smile!!! when i wanted to cry, he would tap my back and asked me not to cry and said, "you’re gonna be alright, dont be sad!". thru all the phone calls and text messages, he cheered me up. well, although we are so far away, our friendship is never drifted away and still keep in touch i thanked you, duder for everything youve done for me although sometimes i might kinda a bad friend!!

6. to all close my mates (ah i dont think i need to mention their names)
thank you for everything!! thank you for being here and there for me!

7. for those who didnt pass my requirement to be my friends (uhauhauhauhuhaa… nah i am just joking) due strict elements, that you guys and me different, how you see the world n life, how you see the meaning of friendship, how you manage to solve and help friends, how somethin hidden from yourself and so on, i gotta to say, you are not egible to be one of my friends. to tell ya the truth, you just dont have those quality to be best friends with me. how did i know and how i judge this? because i can read and see from your personality, attitude, the way you talk and think. i dont need smart asses people to be my friend but only those people know what friendship is and the meaning of it.

8. WA
duder, we’ve been friends not too long but somehow ive already known ya for ages. thanks for being "come out of the shell". dont worry, i’ll be your good friend who always lend an ear for ya if you have problems. i might say it to you once but here and now im gonna say it again. there is one more thing that i would like to say … hahahhahaa.. but just not now!!

last but not least, thanks to all friends who trust me and make me your rubbish bin thru thick and thin!! hahahaa… i really appreciated! no worries, all secrets are safe with me, wont spill out anywhere. thanks for making me a SHRINK!!!

after all, i gotta go!! hahahhaaa.. finally, i let out all my thoughts these 2 days!! wink wink wink wink …

ah .. dia itu salah satu sahabat gue yang paling reseeeeeee … paling tengil … paling blagu … nyebelin … rese … norak … tengil … sepa abesssssssss … tukang ledekkin gue!! hahahaha… melbourneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee … we had tonz of memories!!! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh … orang paling sok cool pas pertama kenal en sok kegantengan!!! gayanya itu … ah .. sarap dah!! yang pernah ninggalin melbourne tanpa bilang2 ama gueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! itu bertanda tuh orang patah hati!! hahahahaa … too bad, this time i wont stay too long …

bayangin neh … after for agesssssssss menghilang, we didnt meet and so on. anjrit … LOL … mendadak tanpa di duga, ini anak telepon gue ke indo (ini orang sebenernya nyadar gak seh kalo dia kabur gak bilang2?). pas gue indo, di messenger sok-nye minta ampon!! giliran gue dah di melb ajeh, keknya dah beda!! ini neh salah satu type cowok yang sarap yang pernah gue kenal, too bad he is one of my good friends!

gue baru ajah ngobs ama ini anak di YM, maren2 dia manggil gw seh, tp gue away. ah … cupu abes dah! dateng2 msg suruh gue telp dia. loe bayangin? gue? hahahahhahaa… slama 4 thn temenan, gue rasa gue telp dia cuman 4x, the rest keknya dia yang telp gue. very very typical … gak pernah SMS en kalo di SMS gak pernah di bales, apalagi email.

barusan gue omelin, "elo kemana 2 thn menghilang gak bilang2 gue. bahkan elo gak pernah imelin gue selama ini!!". udah dah ini anak nge-les byk bgt deh … another typical!! gue dah apal bener deh ama ini orang meskipun ama gue ini orang termasuk introvert abis. sebenernye gue tau sih napa dia ngilang 2 thnan tapi toh gue diem ajeh. itu orang ngilang krn patah hati ama gue!! bwakakkakaa … ah old skool story, mate!! LOL … no matter what i do, we’ll be friends forever. thats the day 14 December 2004 i decided everything.

2007 im back again!! 2008 i’ll be back! but next year, itu anak pindah ke sydney katanya which i thought impossible bgt. itu anak songong pindah? ah .. tapi gak tao deh!! LOL … ah sapi man!!!

tadi tuh anak blg minggu ini bakalan catch up ama gue!! hahahahhahaa.. anjrit mannnnnnn!!!! tampangnye udah kek apa yaaaaaaaaaaaa??? makin ganteng ato makin jelek? hahahhaa… makin cool ato makin sarap? hahahaha… but i guess, after so many years being friends, itu anak gak pernah brubah lah. after all, gue penasaran abes ketemu sahabat lama gue. cieeeeeeee … meskipun gue sempet keki ama attitude-nya. sumpah deh!! cuman gimana yeeeee … 4 years i can bear kok dgn sikap2nya yg gila and we’re still good friends dr pertama ketemu mpe skrg. dari semua temen2 gue, ini anak salah satu temen yang mase doyan temenan ama gue. cieeeee … gak ngerti kan maksud gue? maksud gue itu bukan literally doyan temenan ama gue!! hahahahahaha…

well, yknow lah ini anak typical abis orangnya!! high standard abes dlm temenan en apalagi urusan cewek yang dia demen. so, sometimes yknow lah … kalo org2 tergolong cogan itu ato popular or people in the cool group itu pasti kebykkan (although not all, but most of. i dont care if you disagree with my opinion) temenan itu milih2, mrk bakalan temenan ama org yg bertipikal sama. but i guess, he broke that rule when he first met me!! i was a bit surprised seh. i thought, "ini anak pasti tipikal deh, udah ketauan abes dr tampangnya en kelakuan!!". hahahhahaa… but i was totally wrong, damnit!! he was the opposite way! gue mank slalu blg, "gue paling salut ama temen gue yang satu ini!!".

ya gue blg dia lah, gue keknya gak bakalan lama di melb. di tanya gue why why why? so gue explain lagi gini gitu, dia tanya lage why why why?. hahhahahahaa… masih sama lah dia kek dulu. gue dah nulis belom seh tadi? itu anak jelek suruh gue telp dia. gue blg, besok ajah deh!! hahaha….

2004 was the best!! i think i was doing the right thing in that year or else we wouldnt be friends at all by now. sometimes you gotta let go something so in order you’ll get better thing in the future. i did that .. and here i am …

what else? ari ini .. god damn!!! hahahhaa.. winter tapi panas abesssssssssssss… gue gak cek forecast lage… alhasil kepanasan dgn winter fcukin clothes. ah gilaaaaaaaaaaa … sumpah!! Eri td telp gue, kita ngobs bentar deh. ya geto deeeeeeeeeeeeeee … udah lama gak catch up. gue belom kontek2 temen2 yg laen juga seh …

udah lah .. geto ajah dulu!! makin ari makin menggila, gue sibuk abes mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!! so by next week, i should be alright!!

… no matter what i do …
i always forget to forget you
which means
i always remember you!

oh yeah, i slept well like a hell!! bwakakkakaa.. its been so long since the last time i slept this well!! LOL .. my damn HI FI was broken!! i know its old, stick around wiv me since 1998 and last year was a lil bit broken and last nite i tried to play it, it was playing for a bit then when i came back to ma room, wakkakakaa… the disc was stuck and couldnt turn on any music loud, even the remote control was fcukin shite couldnt do anythin!! oh yeah, thats the sign of the oldie thingy is getting old!! hahahaha… i did fix it by myself a few times last year, but bloody hell but now its dying, totally!! luckily i got another HI FI, but the other one i dont really like it coz the speakers are too small and i need bigger one like ma lovely broken HI FI!! bah!!! oh noooooo no music is pretty suck and i dont like listen music from PC or whatsoever!!

yknow what happened when i just woke up? BWAKAKKAKKA…. it was out of my expectation. i was a lil surprised when i woke up and looked at ma PC, tonz of messages from ma mates!! Hahahhahahaa…. i guess, everyone is wondering around and bloody hell .. where da fcuk am i? oh yeah, me back to ma biggie melbie!

after i had a long slept last nite around 9ish pm, then i woke up around 4ish am coz i gotta lot of things to do and i ended up sleeping again around 8.30 in da morning, then i woke up around 2ish? bwakakkakaa… i was hardly to sleep in other place except ma bedroom in melb. it feels so goooooooddddd!!!!! soooo goood!! i got no skin allergic no more coz the weather here is so secure and fresh. well, everyone knows that ma skin cant bear with hot and humid weather, my skin will shiet rash, itchy and blah blah blah … i gotta back to ma nature .. melbourne … hahaha …

WHAT ELSE? I ENDED UP GETTING UP LATE AND I MISSED EVERYTHING WHILE I PLANNED TO GO OUT!! WELL, I GUESS TOMORROW!! lol BUT BY MONDAY, I GOTTA GO OUT COZ I NEED TO DO IMPORTANT THINGS!!

FCUKIN FREEZINNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!! AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGG!!!!
after all ive been thru and how i was on ma dilemma! here i am! bwakkakakakaa… i was sitting on ma flight with ma head bloody tonz of thoughts and that song kept on playing on ma mind!! hahahahahahaa… mom was teasing me about it as well, she kept on singing on ma ear and smiling! honestly, i am too much listening to that song and to tell ya the truth, there is a big meaning behind that song!

btw, the main event wasnt as i expected. hahahaa… well, as if i cared!! LOL … of course i care, but i just let it goes smoothie! we’ll see when i get back ma ass to Indo. but unfortunetely, i have a target this time, it would be until november 2007 or at least end of december 2007.

say what? aaaahhhhhhhh i slept well … too tired … i woke up around 4ish and got texts from ma crazy mate, then i got heaps of people messages me on YM and MSN, unfortunetely i was away, beibeh! now its already 7.15AM, oh well im sleepy … later around 12ish, i gotta run to buy household thingy!

well, life is good and smooth! i just love being here, but too bad my heart left in Jakarta and locked it there. WHAT THE FCUK? huauhuhauhauhauhauhaa….

ah … gara2 terinspirasi dgn kata2 seorang anak gaul, "why do you have to so cute and i cant ignore you", gue jadi mikir … ini orang lucu juga bisa bikin kata2 lucu! hahahahhahahaa…. sebenernye seh gak ada hubungannya ama gue, gue cuman suka itu quote aja, lucu. kenapa gue bilang lucu? ya karna nurut gue lucu ajah.

perasaan gue beberapa hari ini gimana ya? biasa ajah kali yaaaaa… coz im always happy, well most of the time sih. kalo dengerin lagu a-yue, ah gue tuh 100% pasti kangen indo. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh….

gue bingung ama 6th sense gue, kenapa yaaaaaa inside my heart tuh gue yakin bgt 100% kalo &*!&*y^*@tgfuoahoy*o@!t*)(y!_)(_!*@)&@(phsug&*@t&t&!ryugiopyp(*qt.
sumpah gue yakin bgt 100%!! yakin buanget!! tapi utk skrg seh bukan waktu yang tepat, but i know it will happen more or less next year!! entahlah sebelomnya gue pernah brasa kek geto, meskipun di some events gue pernah yakin 100% 6th sense gue en they happaned just like that. well, after its been so long, this is the first time gue percaya lagi. i hope kali ini beneran terjadi although i dont wanna expect it too high, it might be false!!

ah gila dah pikiran gue! huahahuahuahuahuhuaaa… at the moment, before it happens, im going to put a big question mark on ma forehead!! hahahahahaa…. ?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
WHETHER I LIKE IT OR NOT, IT WOULD BE ANOTHER QUESTION MARK!! HAHAHAHAHA.. HEY WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? I AINT A GOD
EITHER!! HEHEHEHE …

DID YA NOTICE ABOUT HOW MUCH I CHANGED RECENTLY? OH YEAH, LAUGH AT ME!! HUAHUAHUAHUAHUAHUA…

im listening to old skool songs most of the time!! oh yea, im listenin to wilber’s at the mo!!! the funny good lookin guy!! hahahahahaaaa… laid eyes on him da first time when i was in koreaaaaaaa!! oh yeah, hes a taiwanese tho!! hahahahahahaha…. bah!!! i honestly dont like this song!!! because it says, … "if i cant have you, i dont want nobody and blah blah blah … if i cant have you then i dont want no one … if youre not in this world, what should i call this universe? how can i live? blah blah blah blah … i really wanna be with you, what about you? blah blah blah … only you can feel my vibe, please open your heart. i hope you’ll understand, only you can make me happy … blah blah blah …."

SOMETHING LIKE THAT!!!! I CANT REALLY REMEMBER!!! COZ HES FREAKIN RAPPING!! HAHAHAHAHA … I DONT WHY ALL OF SUDDEN IM LISTENIN TO THAT SONG!! AH I JUST WANNA LISTEN TO FAST BEAT SONGS!! DAMNIT!! I GUESS, MY MIND IS GETTING NUTS!!

anjing, berasa bgt dah bangun pagi2 gak jelas trus di otak gue mase muter2 kata2 si ayue!! LOL … hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaa…. ini anak jelek jagoan neon juga!! jago mannnnnn!! LOL … ah … gue dah dengerin lagunya beberapa bulan yang lalu tp sumpeh gue gak ngeh ama apa yang dia cuap2in. tiap ari gue dengerin, tp yg gue denger tuh beatnya doank. pas gue ge down abes, hahahahhaaa… gue sempet seh dengerin bener2 dia ngomongin apaan. ternyataaaaaaa …. gue ngakak sendiri!! bego juga ya, gue kaga nyadar!! alhasil skrg, bangun tidur, mo tidur and blah blah itu lirik nyangkut abes di otak gue!! tapi keknya udah parah bgt deh!! tralala trilili!!! di bawah alam sadar gue keknya mase penuh itu lirik!! simple abes tapi bener2 ini anak jago abes dah!! LOL … meskipun rada2 keki juga seh ama kata2 dlm liriknya itu!!

maren gue sempet ke MBDC liat "if you only knew …" cieeeee … byk euy ungkapan dr lubuk ati yang paling dlm … ngeliat clip ciara feat 50cent di youtube, anjrit … hahahhahahahahaa… gue taro di fs gue, gila tuh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee …. bow wow apa kaga marah ye ce nye di gituin di clip ama co laen? wakakkakakakakakakaa…. gak penting man!!!

maren gue kesel, tp beberapa jem kemudian gue dah normal. gue pikir2 gak worthed lah man. ngapain juga gue pusingin hal2 yang gak penting!! gara2 itu again gue salah hari en tanggal … wakakakkakaa…

ari ini gue gak isa nulis byk2 neh … maybe taran lage gue nyambung!! aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh … andai elo tau betapa gobloknya elo!!! wakakakakakkaa >>>>>>> kata sapa tuh?

the shiet part was i had this odd dream!! but i cant really recall what happened tho in ma dream but all i know there was someone there … plus other things which i tried so hard to recall but i couldnt. oh god … dont tell me … dont tell me it’s a sign … that … that … 2 days to go mannn … 2 days to go … ah … will i bear it? i think im going fcukin insane? should i lie to myself or should i deny the truth? the most idiot thing ive ever done in ma whole life was … aaaarrrgggg .. what did i write in ma book? hahahahaa… bah!!! was i conscious when i wrote that? i wonder if my brain was still on ma head when i wrote that long fcukin sentences!! hahahahaha… bah!!!

sometimes i feel so stupid for being upset with myself when i knew i didnt do anythin wrong at all. its just my stupid feeling!! after a while i was a lil bit regret for what happened today but sometimes i dont!!!

ah how i hate that person!!!! aaaaaaarrrrrggggg … fcuking pissed me off!!! maybe i hate the fact that im the one whos gonna lose from the competition due to certain things that i aint able to do coz i gotta something else more important to do. oh yea, sure … although i said that ive got ma own final decision but inside ma heart seems like a shiet!! hahahahahahaha… bah!!! so sick mannnnn …. oh oh oh shiet competition!! aaaaaaahhhhhhh next year .. would be too lateeee … oh yeah, next year im gonna kiss some asses!! LOL .. oh no, this october!!! huahuahuahuahua … sux mannnnnnn … october i got something else important to do .. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn another shiet happens!!! bah bah bah!!! oh well, thats it … november-december … but but but … complicated!! so then, next year like everyone says!! hahahahaha…

AAAAAAARRRRGGGGGGGG GUE LAGE KESEL!!! ANJING BGT DAH!! SUMPAH SERAPAH GUE BENERAN ASLI DAH KUAR, ITU ARTINYA GUE DAH KEKI ABIS2AN!!! SIGH … NAPA ADA ORG YG KEK GETO? NAPA ADA ORG YG BENER2 GAK ADA OTAKNYEEEEEE… NAPA ORG YG SONGONG KEK GETO DI LAHIRKAN DI DUNIA EN KETEMU GUE? HUAHUAHUAHUAHUUAHHUAHAUAA…. SUMPEH ANJRIT GILA DAH MAN!!! GUE RASA KATA ANAK2 DAH BENER DAH, MENDINGAN ORG KEK GETO GAK USA DI AJAK TEMENAN!!! BUKANNYE GUE JELEK2IN ORG DI BLAKANG, TAPI .. SIGH .. HOW MANY OF FRIENDS YANG UDAH BILANG KE GUE BLAH BLAH BLAH … PERTAMA GUE MASEH, OK LAH, SABAR MANNNNNN JD ORG!!! TAPI GUE MESTI SABAR MPE KAPAN BOW? DIA KIRA DIA ITU SAPA YAAAAAAAA??? HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA …

ah well … gue ge ngunyah2 permen kesukaan gue!!! yoi, gue jd inget jaman2 dulu gue udah kek lupus, ngunyah permen karet plus niup2 jd balon geto!! huahuahuaa… tapi skrg mah udah bedaaaaaa … permen versi laen!! nyokap gue suka protes kl gue makan permen itu suka di gigit mpe pletak pletuk… ah cemen!

ah gue ge seneng … soalnya akhernye di otak gue dah kaga ada masalah yang aneh2 en gue dah kaga mikir yang terlalu jaoh soal yang kaga2. abesnye setelah gue pikir2 gak worthed abes mann… hari gene jd org bego en cupu??? bwakakkaa.. come on mannnnnnn …. 2007 geto!!

tadi sebelon gue nulis ini, gue sempet mikir kata2 greg. sebenernye seh udah ketanem di otak gue dr dolo2, tp tuh yeeee… terkadank teori2 ini org gak nyangkut geto, bikin muter2 pala. pas tar dah kejadian ajah, gue baru kepikiran. aneh yaaaa? sebenernye gue gak gitu paham ama teori2nya si greg, tp sebenernye ngerti sih tp mungkin gue nya ajah yg gak mo ngertiin!! wakakakkakaa… krn skrg gue lage di hadepin dgn salah satu teorinya, ya gitu deeeee … so, gue pikir, ini anak bener juga!! hahahaha.. ato gue yg cemen? napa juga gue baru nyadar skrg? ah sebenernye gw dah nyadar, cuman gue males menyadarkan diri. anjrit… huauhahuahuahuauhhaua taek abesssss …

yoi man, skrg gue dah isa melangkah dgn pasti!! cieeeeeee … *gaya abes gueeeeeee* ah thanks buat semua temen2 gue … bener2 bermakna en membuka mata hati gue … cieeee .. kata2 gue tuh parah bgt yaaaaakkkkkk? auk ah gelep!!!

akher2 ini gw jd demen nyanyiin lagu si a-yue itu!! hahahahaa.. honestly, gue emank suka ama beat lagunya, tapi tuh ye gue gak pernah ngeh ama liriknya!! hahuahuahuahuaa… gue kl dah dengerin itu lagu plus nyanyiin gue dah seneng abes mannnn… sebenernye gue jg gak pernah apal liriknya meskipun gue dengerin tiap ari di mobil, tp entah lah … kocak seh!!! tiap gw dengerin, gue ketawa… ah napa juga ada org bego yang bikin lagu gituan.. lol ..