LINZ SAID SO!!!

sigh … been busy these days with sum friends!! LOL … i was gonna write it down here a couple days ago but oh well .. another freakin lazy days for meeeeeee…. so i started to delay everything due to ma sleepiness since im on ma medication and it makes me drowsy!! aawwwww … but its gonna over soon!! oh yeah, a few shiet days to go.

anyways, finally last weds i got a chance to join da gym!! i was planning to do it ages ago, but since i got no time at all due to i gotta return back and forth melbourne-indo, so yea… postponed. however, coz im goin back next year, so i joined for a year membership. ok, heres the funny thing happened!!! LOL …

there… there a guy whos working there, he works for the marketing thingy. so one of the staffs intro me to him to talk about the membership thingy. but he is so bloody talktative and honestly i cant stand it!! hahaha… he asked me how old i was and i told him my age, but he said, "what? 25??" at the same time he was looking at me from the top of ma head to ma feet. then he continued, "really? youre 25? you dont look like 25? yknow what im 22". bugger!! LOL …

then he intro me to his friend whom a female, we started to talk again about the membership thingy. she asked me some questions about the melbourne and so on. but that guy once in a while was lookin at me for ages (hell yeah, he sat next to me) but i was just acting cool as like everyone knows that im just like that, i dont really care …

he asked me where i lived, so i told him. bah!! he lives in the same area as me!!
hahahaha… he got da restaurant then he started to promote it!! LOL … however, usually in there ppl will only get 2 times free PT (personal trainer) but i got 5 times!!

the next day, those buggers started to call me!! first, called me 10AM and i was so fcukin sleepy coz i slept so late! calling me only to ask fcukin silly question!! i thought everyone was on da form already. then around afternoon, that guy called me again to ma other fone. but since that day i didnt take out that fone with me, so it was missed called. sigh … after that, he called ma mom and blah blah blah … at the same chance, he asked my mom if i was with her. LOL …

what else? the following day, i met up with one of ma oldest penpals. we lost in touch for maybe 12 years or so? it was cool, finally we caught up after so many years gone by!! time does fly, indeed (as i always say). we were just teens ages ago, but now we are so bloody old!! hahahahahaha….

today i went out with ma oldest elementary skool classmate!! we havent caught up maybe since 1989? hahahahhaa… so yeah, count yourself!! LOL … it was cool cool cool … hahaha… we got a plan for next week. we’ll see how it goes.

2moro … gym starts … hahaha… after that, dunno what im gonna do, but im gonna hang out anyways. then on monday, i gotta sort of catch up with a friend of mine. not sure whats next … hahaha.. you gotta book me first!! hahahahaa….

thats all, damnit! hahahaha.. i cant think what im gonna write!! so many things happened!

First of all, I want to thank myself for never losing my smile…
        Its already been 25 years since I’ve received heavens blessings…

Because I ask myself each moment, "Did I do my best?"
        I’ve received many answers of life which made my heart to grow.
        The answer to my life. That is a blessing.

24 sept 2007 at 7.30am
the reason why im writing this is because i cant sleep.
i was laying down on ma bed and all of sudden my mind went
across about EDC. hahahaa….  i dont know why. its just so odd!
and here i am, trying to describe what i was thinking
but once i am here, i dont know what im gonna write. hahahaha…
as usually, i wanna write lots of things here and spill out the beans.
but i feel like i dont have any beans to spill out.
last week i was busy with some friends of fine.
oh yeah, busy with ma fcukin fone.
i hung out here and there … ate here and there …
shopping here and there … what a useless life!! hahahahaha….
sometimes my mind is reversing back to the old times…
and i will always say that maybe its the hint that im getting old! hahaha
yknow i was just thinkin about some people that ive known when
i was young and i cant believe that we just passed so many years together.
look at EDC, the first time i knew him, he was just 19 but now? he is 27.
somehow, some people do change and i dont know if myself is still the same or not.
but im sure that im still the same and i dont know why i just like being like this.
i dont know how many times that im writing like this.
or is it me? the one who is dramatizing things too much?
yknow the one i called hyung … well, im not supposed
to call him as hyung though! ah i aint gonna explain the reason why.
it’s just so funny when i look at him, i always laugh with his attitude.
i know he loves her so much. its just funny how he treats her somehow.
i would love to sneak on him, to see whats going on.
when he receives a text from her, he will smile stupidly.
he would smile and laugh on his silly ways on her behind.
in front of her, he would pretend that he is mad or whatsover but in funny way.
well, hardly to describe. hahahhaa… i just love the view of those love-birds.
what else? i know so many people that ive seen them growing up and i never
realize that time does flies just like that.
sometimes i dont know if the path i had choose was right or not.
i dont know if the life im having now is right or not.
as much as i enjoy it a lot, i dont know …
i dont know even know im bloody thinkin about this.
aaaaaahhhhhhh i dont even understand what im writing here.
its just a few things that happened passed on ma mnd.
honestly, i am on ma very comfort zone and i dont even wanna get out from here.
btw, i so wanna a new cell fone as same as hyung’s!! touch screen!!
hahahahahaha… how cool is that? I DONT WANT IPHONE!!!
i want that foneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee … aiyoooooo so cool ar!!
fcuk!! i think im crazy!! hahahahahahahhaa… i dunno what im thikin about.
i feel like im overdoze and i cant think no more.
but to tell ya the truth, in ma daily life i just never "ponder" like this.
maybe once in a while i would think so far away!!
sometimes i smile by myself like an idiot!!! hahahhahaa….
nah… aaaaahhhh mannnnnnn im so overflowed by happiness
so i cant stop smile and laugh all the time.
thats so different from the real me!! and trust me, I AINT IN LOVE or anything.
im just totally happy, content n happy.
and i just wanna say, "bo go ship da!!!’

what can i say? today is wednesday, 19 sept 2007 and 5am in da tic toc! my life is pretty dope, yknow what i meant? i meant, im on ma bestest stage life ever where ma famz, mates, special person, food, money, etc all around me!! hahahaha… i cant ask for more! i go out every day, i get fone calls every day, i get text messages every day, i get emails every day, i get good foot every day and blah blah .. thanks to god for making me like this. thanks to ma folks, thanks to all ma mates and thanks for every one. aaaahhh … feels like heaven!! honestly, this time i really enjoy my life, no burdens and nothing at all. the most important thing is i dont need to go to school anymore!! bwakakakaka… and i dont need to stay in melbourne alone for fcuking ages like i used to be. now i can go back and forth and stay as long as i want … yummie!!
i was reading edc’s blog before!! its been so long i havent read his blog and yknow what? tonz of updates and he got a new silly blue ipod!! hahaha.. that tiny video ipod! and he got a new latest ipod!! damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn…. i so want the latest ipod!! hahaha fcukin touch screen and bigger screen. well, i supposed to sleep in this kind of hour!! but i got ma day off today!! well, i gotta go, duder!! i better go to sleep!!

rasanya dah lama gw kaga ngedumel lagi!! hahahahaha… ini fs blog telat kale yeee tanggalannya … biasa deh ikutin jem n tgl amrik yang telat sehari. well, disini dah selasaaaaaaaa 18 sept 2007. aduh maren2 gw tuh mo nulis byk bgt, tp gw males en cape bgt!! aaaaawwwwwww … gile yeeee… mo nulis aje gak sempet! sibuk bow!! hahahahahaa… lagak gue dodol bgt gak seh? hahahaha…

im back!! i hit tha jtown!! hahahaha.. senangnyaaaaa … 911 loh!!! so happy some of ma friends called me to say happy bday!! yippie!! gue capeeeeeeeeeeeeee banget pas nyampe!! tepar gituuu… sampe rumah, gw dah gak tahan. gw dah  kena hay fever, mendadak badan gue panas, mata gue perih beraer, dll. gw keknya tepar seharian! tapi berhubung hp gue itu pake vibrate silent, temen2 gw telp, gue setengah sadar en gw dah kaga isa ngangkat telp apalagi ngomong. cape abesssss!! trus temen2 gw pd sent messages juga. dr semua telp en sms, gue cuman suka ama 1 isi sms!! hahahahahahaaahahahaha…. kaga bakalan gue ceritain disini!! hahahahahhahaa…

tapi pada saat itu juga gue kesel ama 1 telp!! yoi, temen gue!! honestly, i was fcukin pissed off abessssss… yknow lah i just came back and bukannya happy bday ke gue tapi … males juga lah gw inget2, gak penting bgt. mestinya ngerti gitu, gw baru balik mannn… itu dah pagi2, trus sore2nya juga. plus another shiet thing neh … 1 lagi juga gitu. trust me man… di kamus gue kata maap itu dikit en kata maafin org juga dikit!!! i dont really care about what ppl say about my rule!! when it happens, 100% gue dah bakalan kasih jarak. kl gw dah gitu, elo dah mesti tau elo dah bikin salah ama gue, terutama soal mulut!! kata2 perlu di jaga!! if you dont respect me, i wont give you the same respect!!! itu ajeh … as i always say, i dont give a damn if im gonna one friend or whatsoever. coz i wont keep low quality friends. i only have a few close friends and they deserve to be close because they are a keeper and have good qualities to be best friends.

last week, i went out whole days!! gue dah kek org kerja 7 ari!! LOL dari pagi mpe sore!! gilaaaa.. gue dah bener2 kaga ada di rumah, cuman malem doank! pulang2 gue bukannya kecapean, gue malah kaga tidur2… hahahahahahahhahahaa…. biasa deeeeeee …. trus minggu ini juga, sama ajah lah .. gw dah kek kerja rodi!! pdhal seh gak juga!

gue dah terbiasa lagi dgn kehidupan kota jkt yg hiruk pikuk, gue suka ramenya, macetnya, jelek2nya… and yknow what? i dont miss melbourne anymore … i dont miss melbourne like i used to be. gue cuman kangen jkt! fair enuff lah, i stayed in melb for fcukin 5 years and hardly to go back to indo those years. i will still do come back to melb once in a while. skrg gw mo puas2in lage stay in indo sebelom gue balik thn dpn!! hkahakhakahkahakhakahkahaa….

last week, gw motong rambut!! hahahaha… kali ini rada aneh!! ini org motong poni gue kependekan and gue tuh gak cocok ama poni kependekan!! gw baru nyadar pas gw dah keramas lage. ya wes lah! rambut gw kan cepet panjangnya!!

last sunday, gw ke kondangan!! hahahaha… gue tuh emank paling males ke kondangan! tapi ya kali ini why not!! hahahahaha… since i could wear a dress girly!! hahahahahaa… with ma short skirt di atas lutut!! hahuahuahua.. udah saingan kek rok mini ajeh tuh dress! gw makan ajeh tuh semua yg ada disono!! ahahahaha… 5x tuh gue makan sana sini!! mwakakkakaa… i so love those tiny cakes and puddings!! hahuahuahuauahua…. pulang2 dah jem 10, gw dah kecapeannnnnnn!!!

what else? yknow di sana gue ketemu sapaaaaa?? hahhahaa… sebenernye seh pas disono gue gak bersuara!! ive seen that guy when i was a kid. but now he grew up as a handsome mannnnn… i guess, we’re about the same age though by now. aaaahhhhh .. taekkkkkkkk!!! cogan abesssss!! tuh dah kek aktor2 korea ato taiwan geto dah. yknow lah he stays in europe. i just couldnt take my eyes off him!! anjrit!! enak bgt dah mukanya di liatin!! wakakkakaa… pdhal dlm ati seh dah mupeng abessssss…

sebelomnya sih ada tuh yang jd event organizer … ah damnnnnnnn…  rambutnya lucu deh.. spiky geto… senyumnya manis!! hahahaa… tapi ya gitu ajeh, soalnye tuh org suka ngabur2. kl yang gw crita di atas kan cuman di dpn mata gue geto! soalnya dia ada di sebelah gueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! hahahahahaa… ada juga atu lage yg keren!! wakkakakakaa… anjrit gue ke wedding org sambil cuci mata! abiesnye bosen … gila gw berdiri tuh mpe 3 jeman, buffet geto … trus nunggu motong kue, dsb, cape deeeeeeeeeeeeee …. kelamaan!!

at the mo, otak gue lage ada kata coklat! gue bukannya mo makan coklat, tapi gue lage mikir buat beli coklat as a pressie buat org!! tapi gw kaga tao juga orgnye doyan coklat pa kaga!! hahahahahahahhahahahaa…. soalnya gue gak suka coklat except cadbury mint!! yummie!! haih!!! we’ll see lah …

sebenernye gue mo nulis panjang disini but there certain things yang mo gw tulis tp gak isa!! hahahaaha…. gue cuman mo nulis K.A.N.G.E.N!!! hahahhahaa… cant wait to see ya again lah …

oh ya, the next day afta ma bday, gue bener2 jutek abessss… entah lah, mood gw jg jelek, jdnya kl temen2 gw telp keknya gue judes en kata2 gw tuh nyelekit abes.. pedes abes!! aahahahaha…. sebenernye gue dah broke ma own promise beberapa ari ini!! cape deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee… because i just cant keep it … udah kanan kiri gue ledekin gw molo!!

tauk gak seh? td ke mangdu, nyok gue ngeliat *********************** trus gue di ledekin!!! trus gue nye kesel!! hahahaha… trus neh … pas sampe rumah, eh gue di ledekin lage ama nyok gue, pake sebut nama lageeeee!!! sial bener!! hahahaha.. langsung gw cabs ke kamar!! ini neeee.. udah jd bahan ledekan nyokap gue tiap ari ke gueeee … bayangin gue di ceng in nyokap sendiri!! sadis gak seh? hahahahahahahaha… tp ari ini seh gw ketawa ngakak abesss …

ya udah lah gue cabs ajeh .. dah jem 3.15am!! gileee.. gw dr jem 10an td mo tidur gak isa tidur2… ga jelas deh!! sebel gue!!!  gue dah lupa gue mo crita apaan ajah… maybe next time kl gw inget!!!

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrgggggggg kurang tidor!!! gile gue tidor cuman 4 jeman. ke bangun gara2 APT tower ge test alarm lage … what a shiet thingy!!! hahahaha… maren gila begadang ngobs2 mpe pagi… mpe akhernya gue dah kaga ada suara ngobs, minum aer en i went to bed tepatnya jem 6 pagi! ga brasa ajah … so you can imagine now, otak gue kek gemana. kl dah kurang tidor gene, pasti idung gue langsung meler alias pilekkkkkkksssssssss!!!blom mandi, blom makan, belom ngapa2in … laper!!! sebenernye dr sabtu maren gue dah mo nulis byk gt en dah dpt byk cerita2, tapi giliran gue dah nulis kek gene, gue kaga inget gue mo nulis apaan!! hahahahhaa…

maren2 6th sense gw jalan geto… hahhahaa.. cape deeee … alias ada signs lage lah. however, ya gue gitu2 ajeh. i dont wanna reveal it although i know. hahhahahaa… i was a bit surprised!! wakkakaa… lo gak liat? gw ge hepi geneeeeeeeeeeee …

td pas bangun tidor, gue sempet mikir panjang!!! it’s just about one of my friendships ajeh!! sometimes i feel remorse but i dont seh … cuman kl gw pikir2 dulu, bah… after 5 years drifted apart gw jg gak tao dah dulu friendship dah kek apaan mpe ahkernya gak kontek2 lage, maybe it was me. cuman thn ini dah sempet balik lage kek semula but after all… can you imagine? 5 thn itu waktu yang udah kebuang byk, udah brubah, gak kek dulu lage. dulu tuh mase jaman2nya childish, ego en high pride. as much as we tried to patch up our friendship now, ya gitu lah. gw cuman regret one thing ajah … hahaha … tapi thats so 5 years ago. cuman ada satu kalimat yang bener2 smacked my head so badly!!! LOL … tanpa gue sadar, mannnnnnnnn … gw bener2 dah left and forgot about everything in the past n when that sentence smacked me hardly, gue sadar … oh my god!! ah well long story!

honestly, otak gue ge ga mood ngapa2in… well, these few days lah. elo ngajak gue ngomong apa juga, gue kaga nyambung dah!! n keknya gue ge males geto. trus neh … mendadak taste of my music tuh dah asli hardcore semua!! hahahahahahaa… kl dah gitu mah, udah ada tandanya gue lage napa… sumpeh, gue gak doyan dengerin lagu2 mellow!!! gw ge pengennye dengerin lagu2 yang bing bang yg entah pake speakers paling gede, trus geber abis2an.. hahaha … and im doing it now!! i left for that kind of music for more 2 years mannnnn … yoi, hardcore hip hop. aaaaaahhhhhh kangen!!!! long live crankie!!! well, now im back again!!! thats sooo meeeeeee … lucky, gw gak pake lagu2 model LP!! hahahahhaa… kl dah pake lagu2 kek geto, artinya gw dah lebi sarap drpd skrg!!! it needs a lil of taste before i get back to my normal human being aka SARAPPPPPPPP!!! gw jg ge males ngomong ama sapa2… hahahaha… otak gw ge blankie!!!

inget kan gw sempet nulis last month that i might lost ma chance and blah blah blah …? terus terang, for fcukin last chance i dont give a damn anymore. sumpah!!! gw dah males krn waktu itu gw dah merasa keknya beneran kalah dlm kompetisi yang nurut gue gak fair abes. however, yknow me lah .. gue nyantai2 ajah orgnya, sebodo amat!!! tapi beberapa ari kemaren nyokap gue ngomong geto there might still a chance if i wanna try. emank seh semua kata2nya tuh kena bgt ke gue, tapi gue cuman bales, "males! dah ga minat!!!". hahahhahaa… tapi abis gw ngomong geto, 2 ari kemudia gw sempet mikir lage. do i still really need to go for it? kadang dlm ati seh, keknya biar one chance gue mase mo menangin ini kompetisi. tapiiiiiiiiiiii… haih gue dah males! FYI, gue dah two steps ahead, cuman butuh more or less 3 steps. berhubung gw nya lagi di negara yg ga jelassssssss … alias melbourneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee …. what can i say? i gotta let it go. blom lage dr source nya dah bikin gue down abes. yoi, gosip man .. gosip kl ada org laen yg bakalan replace trus win the competition!! gw dah mikir ajeh, anjing wtf mannnn??!! hahahahaha… but yknow what happened? maren2 keknya gw dah dpt info lage that i am able to get back to freaking stupid competition. as much as i am excited about it, again … gw dah terlanjur males en bosen muter2 otak!! hahahaha… bodo! kl gue dah decided something gue gak bakalan turn back lage. jelas gue pilih melbourne drpd stupid silly competition yg gak jelas ujungnya. but yknow what? I WON!! UHAUHAUHAUHAUHUHAUHAUHAUHAUHAUHAA… mank enak? tuh org kbykkan ngebacot seh!!! cape deeeeeeeeee ….

kangennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn …. kangennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn …. kangennnnnnnnnnnnn semua temen2 gueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! kangen duck king *again???* huaaaaaaaaahhhhhh otak gue ge di indo!! hahahahahhahahahaa… kl gw isa transfer diri gue dr sini ke indo kek star trek seh enak!! hahahaha…. mau donkkkkkkk!!! aaaahhhhhh … kangen indoooooooooooooooooooooooooo… mo pulang!!! pulang!! pulang!! saya protes!! saya mo pulang!!! kangen ama bokap gueeeee!! tralala trilili!!! kekekkekekee…. trus kangen yang laen2 (keknya gw gak perlu sebutin deh!! uhauhauhauhauhuhauhauhaa you’ll see what happen when i really go back!! hkakhakhakahkahkahaka bakalan jd headlines n topik pembicaraan sehari2)… uhuhauhauhauhaa…

apa yaaaaaaaaa? gw mo nulis byk tp bingung!! pokoknya gue lage seneeeeeeennnnnnnnnnngggggggg!!!! seneng tp otak blankie!! wakkakakakaka… maybe coz ive already won!! lalallalalalalaa…. uahuhaahuhauhauhaa … mabok kan? mo tau lanjutannya? tar kale yeeeeeeeeee tunggu gw di indo dulu … antah berantah!! oh iyeh, otak gue jg byk lagu2 lounge!! wakkakakaaa…. kek pd gak tao ajeh gue paling ga ngeh en males ama musik2 ginian .. wakkakakaa but bah … since last year kl mood gue lage butek, gue demen dengerin lagu2 ginian. aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggggg….

tau gak seh hawk itu keyen abesssssssss …… aaaaaarrrrrggggggggggggggggggg…. break dancing nya top abes!!! trus tu yee hair fashion nya top abes!! kocak!! emank bener tuh kata temen gue, mata gw ama dia dah kek oshin!! wakakkakaka… udah mukanya bulet2 kek gue!! uhauhauhauhauhauhuhauhaa…. he got a real odd accent which i thought he was an aussie but ternyata japanese toh … grew up in oxford, england!! ya udeh geto ajeh!!

begitu lah… gw ge nunggu makanaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnn…. udah aaaaa… mo mandiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii… mandiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ….. mandiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii … aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gue lagi gilaaaaaaaaaaa …. lg seneng bgt!! ceneeeeeeeeennnnngggggggg hatikuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu … loh loh loh? ada apa iniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii??? hkahkahakhakhakahkahakhakhakhakahkahkahkahakhakhakaha

kanye west is da doppppeeeeeee!!! im listenin to his new album "graduation". hahhahaa..  he isnt my favourite but he’s alright since his songs are pretty much the same pattern all the time except if he is collaborating with other people. besides kanye, im still into a song called "oh my baby" from BIG BANG! i cant get that song out of ma head!! hahahaha….

these days im continuing to watch dvd series my name is earl. i bought it last year and havent watched it due to i got tonz of dvds (oh hell ya i bought them) and i confused which one i was gonna watch. well, another reason was due to i was heading back to indo before. so, since im in melb now, im tryin to finish all of em because im heading back to indo again. honestly, if i could i would bring back home all those cds/dvds. but yknow my collection is da shiet!!! i got like thousands of em!! hahahaha unless you wanna pay me for cargo em aka ship em back to indo!! hahahaha…

for lunch, i had freakin chicken and chips!! aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh very typical aussiers!! mwakakakakakkakaa… i so cant wait go back to indo .. but … but … but … btw, not sure why some mates are acting so odd!! hahahaha.. dont ask me why, duders! i was wondering why as well … yknow what i meant by acting so odd? hahahahahahahahahaa… all i can do is laughing!! i dont complain if theyre like that! im happy to see that coz it means im the greatest. wakkakakakaa.. nah … never mind!!! LOL …

yummieeeeeeeeeeeee … yummieeeeeeeeeee … ah been busy these days!!! fcuk something wrong with ma 1GB MD disc!!! aaaaarrrrrrrgggggggggggg…. i cant be bothred to fix it!!! i dont know the disc is stupid or my MD device or ma stupid software!! coz its been for fcukin ages i havent touched aka used it!! maybe 4 years since the first time i got it!! LOL .. oh well, since i got ma MP3 iRiver and IPOD, i left MD!! but MD is pretty good, i like it coz i can play it in ma car!! wakakkakakaa… i got da MD player in ma car, you silly!!!

well, i gotta stop here… gotta return to do ma stupid job!! hahahhaahhahahahahahahaha.. WTF mannnnn???

6 sept 2007
sunny daaaaaaaaeeeeeeeeeeeeee ….
its like yesterday … yummie fooodddddddddddd!!!
last nite i slept a bit early around 12am
then i woke up around 9ish or 10am
just to find out my stupid internet server was down
well, ups and downs!!
i gotta fix it by myself, rebooted the modem and so on!
how smart …
it works! im smartest than that stupid bigpond customer
service assistant!!! i was asking what and she was answering what!!
hahahahhahahaa… yknow what i meant?
i asked her something, she answered me back with something
out of my questions!! all she did was offering me bloody
phone plan!! i think she was just hanging herself once she found
out that im on telstra fone which exactly the same label company
with bigpond!! hahahahhahaa…
it was soo good to serve her back like that!!
well, even though sunny i dont wanna go out today
take a rest but 2moro is friday so im gonna go out!!
what else? this morning i was a bit pissed off of someone else’s
big sentence towards me who i called as a "not that so close friend"
but after all, bloody hell i dont care! hahahahhaaa
i told ya, duder!!! no one is able to hide their true
identity/personality from me!! its just one click and the underneath
shows up!! LOL … i am this smart or maybe too smart for this kind
of thingy!!! ah well … its not like im showing off my ability to
read ppl’s personality!! its just something is telling whether this
person is a good or bad, or whether lying or not!!
however, even though i know the truth, usually i just keep my mouth shut.
i dont need to reveal anyone’s true identity/personality or
what you called as wrackless.
by the time i decided not to friends anymore or make a distance
and or with no reason nor purpose the truth is finally showing up by
itself, thats the day when i know everything!
so you dont need to lie in front of me, show off and so on!!
well, lucky me to have this kind of ability!!
and i honestly, i really hate ppl who fcukin show off when you got nothing at all.
i’ll keep ma mouth shut till i get sick of ya and i’ll kick yer ass!! LOL …
whatever!!! hahahahaa…
dunno why, i just tend myself to be happy because i am
because 2007 is the happiest year of my life so far!!!
no part being in gloomy and miserable life just sometimes
i get cranky!! LOL … its like a cranky song!!
mumbling here and there …. gumbling here and there …
well, thats a normal thing to do as a human being
anyways, busy day these days … gotta prepare for ma big plans!!!
ive done some… deadline next monday!
uuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmm aaaarrrggg …. btw, baaaahhhhhhh…
i cant wait back to jtown to catch up with all friends and eat good meals!
goodie… goodie … goodie… goodie ……… goodieeeee ….
hkahkahakhakhakahakhakhakahkahakhakahkaakhakahkahakhaka
i soooooooooooo cant wait!!! i miss my duck king!!! ah i so love eating
roasted duck!! yum … yum … yum … i miss ma penang bistro, that
coooooooozzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bistroooooo .. where i can have ma
damn sooooooooooooo ice lemon teaaaaaaaa … ma hainamese chicken
on riceeeeeeeeeeee … huuhauhauhauha damnit!!! i miss PIM2 n PS!!
uhuhauhauhauhauhauhauhuhaa…….. BAH!!! SO MANY THINGS!!!
oh oh oh …. i dont like winter anymoreeeeeeeeee … i want ma summer back!
what else? me miss PS cinema!! wakakkaaa..
btw, im gonna change my internet broadband cable plan. so next time
i cant online much anymore!! uhauhauhaauhuha … unless i steal
the wi fi connection from da neighbour like i used to!! LOL …
thats all for today!! honestly, i just write shiet … random things
that running on ma mind!! so please excuse my french!! hahahaha…
*kbykkan gaya loeeeeeeee!!*

Funny thing happend tonight… honestly, i dont wanna write this …. honestly, i hate that i gotta write this because i dont know why im so friggin upset and by im writing this im not stabbing back anyone aka talking their behinds… well, i think upset isnt the right word though. i meant, i have this sick feeling of someone’s attitude and behaviour. i aint sure how long i can bear with it.

firstly, i admitted that i didnt listen to what friends said or whatsoever about this person. because i believe what i believe. but somehow, it gets into my nerve. well, this is it … i gotta cross out this person outta ma life. i dont wanna do this but well… i have to …

i meant, come on… i cherish every friendship but after i got a few convos a couple days before, i was cheering myself that i think i could bear with this person what i called as a friend. because nobody is perfect, so i gotta take it if this friend is having a nature shiet attitude and behaviour.

to tell you the truth, i never got mad on this person’s jokes. because yknow me … sometimes i just dont give a real damn about everything. but after tonights convo, i was like fcuk mannnnn, who do you think you are talking like that to me? it wasnt the first time but fcukin million times and i dont know why in the past i was able to cope my emotions with this person while everyone knows that i really have this shiet fcukin temper, i am so easily worked up on things that shiet me alot. if it happens, trust me, i would bash that person with harsh shiet words from ma mouth and it would slit the heart indeed.

tonight, luckily i didnt bash and gave that person’s a shiet serve. i think, i was able to handle but not til when we stopped talking. the more i think about it, the more it gets to my nerve and it makes me writing this shiet outta ma hell.

as i wrote before on my previous post, when you are not egible to my friend, then you wouldnt be able to be one and i would cross you out plus theres no turning back at all. i dont give a damn whether you are on ma list or not. that day i havent decided everything but after that fcukin convo, it was bashing me right to ma head, the blood pumped to ma nerves or whatever you called it, veins? thats when i decided and i gotta listen to what my friends said before that its time for me to say to this person, FCUK OFF AND GET A LIFE MAN!!! STOP FCUKIN SHOWING OFF WHEN YOU GOT NOTHIN TO SHOW ON YOUR ASS! gosh … i wonder why god creates this kind of human being?

i wonder why i never listened to my friends in the first place! againnnnnnnnnnn.. for god sake’s how many times?