LINZ SAID SO!!!

ah .. this is the hardest decision that i have ever made, maybe. but somehow after all nite long thinking about it, well or not to think about it. today when i went out, i was sitting in the car and i had so many thoughts. i couldnt keep it no more although some of my friends knew about this thingy. so then i bursted it out to someone else about the problem i was having, the person who always knows me better than myself. after that, i got my decision. well, wouldnt be so goooood if you just ignore everything that just happened? you know, as much as i hate this person, i think i am gonna hate this person ever for making me like this. maybe it was my fault too because i expected too much. but since ive already knew the answer, everything went so well and i got nothin worry no more since yesterday. i totally understood although i was so freakin pissed off in the first place. but then i had another thoughts, "what for? wouldnt be just wasting my time?".

ok, THIS AINT ABOUT DC. but … if i could see DC as my friend, the bestest friend, why i couldnt do the same to the other person although i hate that person a lot these days? i just hated this person’s attitude was pretty immature compare to DC. both are about the same age, why would the only person who understood the situation only DC? only DC who knew how to handle this situation maturely? both are my friends. aaaaahhhh … both are my friends, yknow? but why would i hate this other friend? since today, i have promised myself that when I go back to Melbourne later this year, I would only catch up with DC and I wouldnt go to see the other friend. Maybe one day I can accept this person back as my friend. it just hurts me too much to bear. I wish in the past I didnt have any chance to meet this person ever!! I wish … mom told me to take it easy and dont take that person’s words into deeply my heart. but i was sooo pissed off. well, you know me … once i decided to stop in that particular part, i would do so right away and yet im doing it. i would just ignore that person and make everything about that person invisible. INVISIBLEEEEEE!!! i really hate it this person is still on my friends list. yknow i was gonna delete it ages ago but i just couldnt bear to do so. but then all of sudden .. aaaaahhhh … damnnn mannnnnn!!!

gila dlm sehari gw mesti nulis brapa kali cobaaaaaaa? meresahkan jiwaaaaa!! hahahahaa.. kambing, gw malah dengerin ini lagu indo lagi. kampret! indo campur bhs jepang!! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh … kena bgt di gue!! wakakakakaka … isa bikin gw joget2. pasti2 loe kaga kenal dah sapa!! wakakaka.. kga bakalan loe liat di tipi! lama2 MP3 player gw bobrok juga kae IPOD gw.

gw bingung ngapain ini orang buang2 pulsa ke gw cuman buat nulis 3-4 urup (contoh: ABC!). 350 geto loh boooooo … 500 geto loh booo. HAH? HAH? HAH? gak penting bgt kan jooooo … mo ngapain coba? ato kebykkan duit? hah? kebykkan duit kale yeee.. sayangnya gw seh kaga mampu! hahahahaha…

gw cuman mo bilang: ienai kimochi o daita mama. kono mune ni anata michitekuru. dakedo setsunakute kurushii omoi naki dashisou. moshi dare yori mo hayaku anata ni deatte itanara. omou mama ni negau mama ni koi o shita deshou ka?????????????? mouichido moichido. umare kawatte aeta nara. koto wa anata no. ichiban ni naritai. aeba au hodo ni tsunoru bakari. awanakya sabishi kunaru bakari. nante migatte na soshite konan na koi o shita no deshou. isso ubaeru mo no nara sou kangaeta koto mo aru. futari no kyori mou kore ijou hanashitaku nai kara . . .

gila kan? hahahahaha.. JELEK BGT SEH LOE? BETEEEEE .. SEBEL BGT GW ARI INI!! SUMPAH!! BELAGU AMAT SEEEEE?? SAPA SEH LOE??? BUANG KE SHARK!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAA … AARRGG GEMES BGT GUE! PENGEN GW POTONG2, GW KASE MAKAN BUAYA! HHAHAAHAHAA…

OH MY GOD!! ANOTHER OH MY GOD FOR THE 3RD TIME!! LOL … HAHAHAHA… MANNN… I CANT BELIEVE IT. I HAVE A FEW GOOD FRIENDS BUT AFTER ALL, DC IS STILL THE BEST! HAHAHA .. HONESTLY, I DONT WANNA COMPARE HIM TO MY OTHER FRIEND WHO I THOUGHT THAT PERSON IS SORT OF ANOTHER DC. BUT I WAS STUCK BY A BIGGIE NEWS TODAY … I JUST COULDNT BELIEVE WHAT I SAW OR READ TODAY. YKNOW … DC IS A FRIEND OF MINE OF SORT OF 5 YEARS AND AS I ALWAYS SAY ALTHOUGH WE’RE SO FAR AWAY FROM EACH OTHER, BUT AT LEAST WHEN HE DOESNT TALK A LOT, HE WOULD JUST CALL ME NO MATTER HOW FAR HE IS AND MYSELF. ITS JUST SOMETHIN THAT I CANT CUT FROM LIFE… HE IS JUST A FRIEND THAT I HAVE A LONG HISTORY WITH AND VICE VERSA. FOR SURE, HE IS STILL A PART OF MY LIFE NO MATTER WHERE I GO. STILL ONE OF MY GOOD FRIENDS.

I WAS A BIT SHOCKED BY THE CURRENT EVENT. I THOUGHT YEAH, THIS WOULD BE THE LAST TIME. BUT MAN … I THINK THERE WILL BE ANOTHER JOURNEY FOR ME. HAHAHAHA… BOOO HOOOOOOOO … JUST MISSING SOMETHIN IN LIFE … I MISS DC. I WILL ALWAYS MISS EVERYTHING WE DID IN THE PAST. HAHAHHAA… DAMNNNNN!! SO CANT WAIT TO CATCH UP WITH HIM. DAMNIT! I MISS MY BEST FRIEND! aaaaaarrrgggggg … I WANT MY BEST FRIEND BACK HERE WITH ME!! WHY SO FAR AWAY??

I AM SHOCKED BY THE CURRENT EVENT!! SHOCKED!!! MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO … HAHAHHAA…

LOL .. I WAS JUST TEASING DC!! LOL .. HE WROTE SO MANY THINGS IN CHINESE!! I ASKED HIM WHY SO MANY CHINESE CHARACTERS? LOL .. HE WAS SO SILLY AS USUALL, HE SAID, COZ IM CHINESE!! BAH!!! BACK TO HIS STUPID BEHAVIOUR!! ah well …

27 jan 2008

oh god .. what did i do wrong this time? please dont punish me like this! im starting to drive myself insane … im tryin to deny it but i cant help myself no more … please god dont do this to me … if it is not meant to be, please just release me from this shiet things that have been happening to me in past few days!! im sooooooooo tired being like this … hahahaha…

oh dear god .. help help help!! show me the right way so i know what im gonna do later … sigh … should i wait for another year? its not even fun anymore … why is it so bad timing? i wanna scream to the world! i wanna laugh like an idiot … i wanna smile all day long!

sigh .. its really out of my league … out of my league this time, indeed. i feel like im only dreaming … dreaming so high and at the end im just gonna fall down and hurt myself … out of my league .. why? because its just because out of my league. i got nothing … i got nothing to offer … because im just like this, an ordinary human being … and im just … aaaaaaahhhhhhh … what did i do?

i feel like im so idiot, a fool .. a dumb-ass … hahahhahaa… i dont know what to do … dont know what to do .. dont know what to do, dear lord!! can you just grant ma wish this time? please … just a wish before my birthday this july!! aaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggggg … hahahahahaha… damnit!! daaaaaammmnnnnn!! i hate being like this!!! anyone who can help me? wakkakakaa….

I LOVE THIS SONG
CRAIG DAVID - OFFICIALLY YOURS

ohhh yeah yeah
la da de la da de la da da da da do

thinking how the story goes helpless and wishing
put the film inside my mind but there’s a big scene that im missing
as I reread my lines I think said this I should’ve said that
did you edit me out of your mind because in a flash you would disapper gone (gone)
before the curtain falls and we act this out again
maybe I should risk it all and state that

I’m officially going on the record to say I’m in love with you im officially

everything you hoped that I would be this time i’ll tell the truth i’m officially

wrong I know for letting you go the way I did unconditionally more than I ever was

before I’m officially yours
la da de la da de la da da da da do

Traveling down this road again got to make a few decisions dont want you to feel

this hurt again thats why im hoping that you’ll listen if you let me press rewind I

will rehearse every word I should have said cause girl im ready to make things right

here on the stage so we can move on
and before the curtain falls and we act this out again missing pieces of ourselves

so stay

I’m officially going on the record to say I’m in love with you im officially

everything you hoped that I would be this time i’ll tell the truth i’m officially

wrong I know for letting you go the way I did unconditionally more than I ever was

before

things I should I have said like I appreciate the time that I spent with you inspire

me with the smile of yours on your pretty face my world comes alive now I know (and

now I know babe) this time im not letting go cause I’m officially yours officially

everything you hoped that I would be this time i’ll tell you the truth I’m

officially wrong I know for letting you go the way I did unconditionally more than I

ever was before

I’m officially going on the record to say I’m in love with you im officially

everything you hoped that I would be this time i’ll tell the truth i’m officially

wrong I know for letting you go the way I did unconditionally more than I ever was

before

girl im unconditionally yours officially yours your man
girl im unconditionally yours officially yours I am

girl im unconditionally yours officially yours your man
girl im unconditionally yours officially yours I am

26 JANUARY 2008

AFTER DC MADE ANOTHER CRAZY DEBUT FOR EARLY THIS YEAR! THEN I GUESS, I HAD ANOTHER HEART ATTACK AKA OH MY GOD FOR THE 2ND TIME FROM SOMEONE ELSE! HAHAHAHA … HONESTLY, I AINT SURPRISED AT ALL COZ IVE SEEN FROM THE START SO WHEN I HAD A CHANCE TO SEE IT CLOSELY … SO WELL, THATS SOOOOO TRUE!! I CANT EVEN WRITE IT DOWN … I CANT EVEN DESCRIBE IT … I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN IT … I CANT EVEN SPREAD HERE WITH MY OWN WORDS … THE PERFECT WORD IS SPEECHLESS. AS SAD AS IT CAN BE … ITS ALL GOOD … I TOLD DRUNKEN MANY THINGS FOR WHAT HAPPENED THAT DAY … AND ITS BEEN DAYS THAT IVE BEEN REPEATING MYSELF TO TELL THE SAME SHIET STORIES TO DRUNKEN!! BECAUSE I GOT NO ONE ELSE TO TURN AROUND, ONLY DRUNKEN! HAHAHAHA… FOR SURE, I CANT SHUT UP MYSELF .. I CANT WAIT .. I CANT WAIT .. I CANT WAIT .. WHY OH WHY TIME GOES SO SLOWLY THIS YEAR!! I THINK I JUST DRIVE MYSELF INSANEEEEEEE … FOR A COUPLE DAYS I DIDNT GET SLEEP AT ALL … UNTIL I FELT PAIN BURNING IN BOTH OF MA EYES. MAYBE IM STARTING TO BE INSANE … YES, INSANE TO BE EXACT!! HAHAHAHAHA …

THE OTHER DAY I DIDNT SLEEP FOR LIKE 2 DAYS … I DIDNT GET SLEEPY AT ALL ALTHOUGH I KNEW I NEED SLEEP OR ELSE I WOULD BE LIKE A ZOMBIE. FOR SURE, I WAS A ZOMBIE … SO THEN I WENT OUT TO CATCH UP WITH DAVID SINCE HE JUST CAME BACK FROM SYDNEY. WE WALKED HERE AND THERE FOR HOURS AND HOURS UNTIL MY FEET FELT LIKE AN IDIOT WHEN I GOT HOME! HAHAHAHA… THE POINT IS .. I DONT GET TIRED AND SLEEPY AT ALL COZ WE HAD A LOT OF SILLY JOKES AND LAUGHED TIL MA CHEEKS WERE PRETTY STIFF!! LOL … SOMETIMES ITS GOOD TO FIND SOMEONE WHO LOTS IN COMMON WITH YOU. YKNOW … YOU CAN TALK ABOUT EVERYTHING, DO THE LAME JOKES EVEEEERRRR, DO THE STUPID THINGS, JUST BE YOURSELF, FEEL COMFIE AND BLAH BLAH BLAH … THE MOST IMPORTANT IS LAME JOKES!! HAHAHAA.. BECAUSE I THINK IM ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO LOVES LAME JOKES BECAUSE I DO THAT A LOT TO ALL MA FRIENDS. WHAT ELSE? WE ALSO WENT FOR A MOVIE … RAMBO IV … MANNNNNN … THATS SO FCUKIN BRUTAL MANNNN!! I CANT EVEN DESCRIBE IT … I DONT KNOW IF I SHOULD RECOMMENDED IT TO OTHERS OR NOT! HAHAHAHA… I WAS SO STRESSED OUT WHEN I WATCHED IT! FCUKIN BRUTAL MANNNNN!! THEN WE HAD DINNER. THE STAFF ASKED US TO FILL OUT THE SURVEY QUESTIONARIES (I FORGOT HOW TO SPELL IT) OR FEEDBACK FORM AND AS AN EXCHANGE SHE GAVE US THE VOUCHER!! LOL .. BUT I GAVE IT TO DAVID. I FILLED OUT THE SURVEY PAPER WITH SILLY THINGS!! WAKAKAKKAA… AND I COMPLAINED SOMETHIN ABOUT THE NOODLES!! HAHAHA.. AH DUNNO, I SO LOVE TO FILL OUT THE FEEDBACK THINGY IN EVERY RESTAURANTS OR PLACES TO EAT.

SO MANY PLANS FOR THIS YEAR … HK, CHINA, JAPAN, AUSTRALIA, TAIWAN, THAILAND … DUNNO WHERE ELSE … NEXT DESTINATION WOULD BE JAPAN FOR SURE BETWEEN MARCH OR APRIL. THEN I’LL BE HEADING TO MELBOURNE, SYDNEY AND GOLD COAST AGAIN! IT FEELS GOOD TO CATCH UP WITH SO MANY OLD FRIENDS OVERSEAS!! I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!!! YUMMIE … HAHAHAHA…

YKNOW … DO YOU REMEMBER ABOUT WHAT KC TOLD ME LAST MONTH? HAHAHAHA… HONESTLY EVERYTIME KC TOLD ME SOMETHIN IMPORTANT, I DONT REALLY PAY ATTENTION TO IT. BUT WHEN IT REALLY HAPPENS THEN I START TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING KC TELLS ME…. THEN I STARTED TO REMEMBER WHAT THAT OLD UNCLE TOLD ME BACK IN 2006. THE KEYWORD IS SO SIMILAR … KC TOLD ME THE SAME THING …

I WAS PRAYING THESE A FEW DAYS … I WAS LIKE BEGGING TO GOD … I REALLY WANT IT … I REALLY WANT WHAT IVE BEEN PRAYING AND HOPING FOR TO BE HAPPENS SOOOONNNNN!! I REALLY DOOOOOOO … IVE BEEN SO TIRED IN THE PAST FEW YEARS. I DONT WANNA BE TIRED NO MORE … I WANNA GO TO THAT FINAL DESTINATION!!! I MEANT, I WANNA BE MORE HAPPIER THAN BEFORE … WELL, GOD, YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT …

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BTW, GARA2 DENGERIN MAIA NYANYI DI TV THN LALU LAGU BARUNYA. ANJRIT!! HAHAHAA.. GW JD DEMEN INI LAGU … ENAK ABESSSSS … MPE GW PAKE BUAT NADA SAMBUNG!! HAHAHA…

Duo Maia - Ingat Kamu

apakah ini namanya cinta
begitu membingungkan
aku kini sedang jatuh cinta
ku tanyakan mengapa

hatiku resah, hatiku gundah
semuanya jadi serba salah

aku mau makan, ku ingat kamu
aku sedang sedih, juga ku ingat kamu
aku sedang bosan, ku ingat kamu
oh cinta, inikah bila ku jatuh cinta

semua tertawa lihat tingkahku
lenyap jadi tak menentu
begini salah, begitu pun salah
ku tanyakan mengapa

hatiku resah, hatiku gundah
semuanya jadi serba salah

aku mau makan, ku ingat kamu
aku mau tidur, ku ingat kamu
aku mau pergi, ku ingat kamu
oh cinta, mengapa semua serba kamu

aku sedang bingung, ku ingat kamu
aku sedang sedih, ku ingat kamu
aku sedang bosan, ku ingat kamu
oh cinta, inikah bila ku jatuh cinta

apakah ini namanya cinta
begitu membingungkan

25 JANUARY 2008
OH MY FCUKIN GOD!!! YOU GOTTA BE JOKING, MATE!! HAHAHAHA.. DC CALLED ME FROM SYDNEY ABOUT 7.30AM!! I WAS SO SHOCKED!! I WAS LIKE, "WHATTTTTTT?". HE JUST CALLED ME? I GUESS THE MOON HAS FALLEN DOWN TO EARTH JUST NOW!! LOL … I WAS SENDING HIM A TEXT ASKING WHETHER HE WILL BE IN HONG KONG OR NOT FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR!! HAHAHAHA… OH MY GOD!! HE SAID HE GOT LOTS OF THINGS TO DO IN SYD AND HE JUST CHANGED HIS JOB. THE FIRST TIME MY MOBILE RANG, ON MA SCREEN THERE WAS AN ODD NUMBER WHICH THE COUNTRY CODE I DIDNT RECOGNIZE, I THOUGHT SOME OTHER COUNTRY. SO I DIDNT PICK IT UP. THEN ANOTHER INCOMING CALL THAT WRITTEN AS A PRIVATE NUMBER. SO I PICKED UP. WHEN HE SAID HELLO, I KNEW IT WAS HIM!! BAH!! HIS VOICE!! AND HIS AUSSIE ACCENT!! MY GOSH!! ITS BEEN SO LONG … ITS BEEN SO AGES SINCE THE LAST TIME I HEARD HIS VOICE AND WE TALKED LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED IN THE PAST. THATS SO GOOOODDDDDD!!! HE ASKED ME WHEN I AM COMING BACK TO MELBOURNE. I SAID, MOST PROBABLY IN WINTER TIME. MANNNNNN … I WAS SO SHOCKED HE MADE THAT EFFORT TO MAKE A LONG DISTANCE CALL. I JUST HAD A THOUGHT THAT HE WASNT MY FRIEND ANYMORE OR EITHER WAY THAT WE ARENT FRIENDS NO MORE OR MAYBE I SHOULD REMOVE HIM OUT OF MY FRIENDS LIST LIFE ALTHOUGH HE SAID IT WAS OK ABOUT OUR PAST STORIES BUT I WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP THAT WE BUILT FOR AGES AGO (THE FACT IS THAT HE IS SO MATURE TO HANDLE OUR PAST PROBLEMS, NOT LIKE OTHER GUYS I KNEW). SO I WAS ASKING HIM WHEN HE WILL BE BACK TO MELBOURNE. HE SAID THAT EVERY WEEKEND HE ALWAYS GOES BACK TO MELBOURNE. BAH!! I ALSO TOLD HIM THAT I MIGHT GOING TO SYDNEY (AT THE SAME TIME IM GONNA BRING MY PARENTS AND RELATIVES THERE FOR A TRIP, AFTER THAT WE CAN CATCH UP 1-2 DAYS). LOL .. AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGG .. GOD DAMN, HIS BACKGROUND WAS SO NOISY, HE SAID THAT HE WAS IN SHOPPING CENTER. HONESTLY, AFTER I HUNG UP THE PHONE, I FELT LIKE HIS AUSSIE ACCENT IS SO STRONG WHICH I FOUND VERY ODD. ITS BEEN A LONG TIME MANNNNNN… I HARDLY TO SPEAK ENGLISH AND I WAS ALMOST ABOUT SPEECHLESS WHEN HE CALLED ME!! IN FACT, I SAID TO HIM, "IM SO SURPRISED THAT YOU CALLED ME!! WAKAKKAKAKAKAKAA… THEN … WHAT DID HE SAY? I FORGOT MAN!! I WAS TO EXCITED!! OH .. HE SAID, "YEAH, I GOT YOUR MESSAGE AND I COULDNT BE BOTHRED TO REPLY SO I JUST CALLED YOU!!" THEN HE SAID, "CALL ME WHEN YOU COME TO AUSTRALIA!". DAMN … I MISS THIS OLD FREAK FRIEND!! I SO CANT WAIT TO CATCH UP WITH HIM AND BRAGGING THE UNSOLVED STORIES BETWEEN US!! HONESTLY, ITS ALREADY SOLVED!! BUT I WANNA KNOW MORE!! HAHAHAA… THIS TIME, I WILL ASK HIM IN FRONT OF HIS FACE!! LOL …. WHY OH WHY ALL MY GOOD FRIENDS ARE OVERSEAS? HE IS ONE OF MY TOP FRIENDS BESIDES ABS! SO I CARE LOTS ABOUT HIM AS SAME AS I CARE ABOUT ABS. I WISH I CAN CATCH UP WITH HIM AS WELL IN HK, AS SAME AS IM GONNA CATCH UP WITH ABS REAL SOON, NEXT WEEK!

its been so ages i havent written anythin here!! LOL … honestly, i did tonz of writing but not these 2 weeks though!! wakakaka … i just got da time to log on the internet. I AM CRAZY ABOUT THESE 2S SONG "我就是喜歡你" and "我願意". HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA… OH MY GOD!! PLEASE KILL ME FOR THIS SONGS!!

been too busy in the past 3 weeks!! hahahaa… so many things to deal off and ive been starting to hate it!! wakakkaaa .. holiday is making me more stress out … hahahaa … bah!! i dont even have my own time!! LOL … i ended up stay awake for 1.5 days and fell asleep only for 3 hours!! i dont know how my look like now!! huauhahuahua … zombie and the gang!

do you know that guy CHUCK BASS on that GOSSIP GIRL? hahahaha… i feel like i wanna wreck his face for being so playboy, cooky, rich, party animal and what you called as "booze, sex and rock and roll". i laughed til ma head off when he said that he would tell his dad that he was gonna open an X club!! wakakkaaa …  rese abesssssssss tampangnya!! pengen di bejek2!!! tapi terlalu charming tuk di lupakan!! wakakkakaa… tampangnya itu loh? matanya .. hahaha .. najes amit2.
asli penggoda cewek2. chuck bass geto loh!!! LOL … gregetan abesssss … DEMON ABES INI ANAK!! EVIL BGT!! DEVIL ABESSSSSS!!!

kalo NATHANIEL ARCHIBALD aka NATE … keren abesssssssss … hahahahaa… gokil!! more than words ever can say!! udah lama kaga liat yg kek geneeeeeeee … tampang polos tapi charming abes!! sebenernye lebih charming drpd si chuck, cuman keknya kl ngomongin soal karakter, gw lebi suka yg evil2 .. hahahaa … gelep ah!!!

the most boring story ive ever written … tp gw ge suka ama ini serial!! hahahahahahaa… yoi, cuman krn pengen liat si chuck ama nate!! LOL .. anjrit!! keren cihuy!! akhernyeeee …

ya udeh ah .. gw males crita2 yg laen .. wakakkaa.. gak penting!!! soalnya gw mo critain hal2 yg lebi gak penting lage contohnya kek di atas!! wakakakkaaka …

i miss the old me … hehe .. right now im listenin to the radio. somethin that i havent done in years since junior high school. haha … but lately every where i go, i turn on the radio. for sure mannn … most radio that i listen always play oldies e.g back in 1990s. ah … i remember all those popular songs in those years so most of the time i sing along. do you remember that ne-yo song (so sick)? hahaha… i bet, he asked you to stop listen to the radio! hahaha …

honestly im sick of those people who have those rubbish mouths!! i also sick of those sweet talking people. plus i am sick of those people who have no brain!! everything … any kind of human beings who have those shiet attitudes that i cannot be tolerated forever. i am so sick!! sick!! sick!! sick!! sick!! hueeeekkkkkkkkkk … *vomitting* …

one more time, to tell you the truth .. i am pretty sick of everything. i dont have time for shiet people … in the past 2 years, i really do more and more selective to choose which one or who have those good qualities to be my friend or enter to my life. no traitors!! no betrayers! no nothing … no shiet people! too bad mannnnn.. some of ya didnt pass my shiet tests!! LOL … SO THATS A BYE BYE FOR YOU!!! as if i didnt give any test, still … i was able to see your inside or true personality. i got ma xray eyes!! you cant lie, damnit!!

what else? im been so bored these days!! aaaaarrrgggggg … me only got daily life like thisssssss … im happy about it but i need to write, write and write. aaaaarrrrgggg … i think i need to get back the old me who always writes, writes and writes … well, not writing on a blog. hahaha … i have heaps of time to write like i used to be, but the thing is, i always run of any ideas. the other day, i was thinkin to write something that really fcukin pissed me off … made me wanna kill someone (well, not literally) … but i just cant express it into words like i used to do.

i really hate certain people. i hate them!!! i hate those ppl who make me angry all the time … for the more, for those people who insult me. aaaarrrgggggg … during all this time, i always kept silent but yknow im just a human like everyone else in this world. i sometimes really wanna let it out although i did some in this blog, but it didnt calm me down. honestly, if i was a villain, i would kill all of them like i burn those bees!! hahahahaa … hell yeah, i never burn any animals!! hahahahaa … just my wish to shut em off. i would burn them to hell. wakakkakakaakkakakaa….

hahahaha… gw telat ntn acara dewa 19 and the rock (uda keburu abesssssss acaranya)!!! pas gw liat si dani nyanyi lagu2 dewa 19… gw langsung senyum2 sendiri .. hahaha… taek mannnnn … gak byk org tau kl gw penggila dewa dr thn 1992!! BAYANGIN GW MASE SD THN 92! jaman ari lasso mase cupu!! si dani mase cupu2!! hahaha… mrk mase SMA!! gw juga mase cupu, mase SD!! wakakkaa… BAYANGIN SAMPE SKRG!!! SAMPE dr ari mpe once!! semua albumnye gw punya!! wakakkaa.. dulu tuh kan mase jaman kaseeeettttt!! wakakakkaa… dr jaman kaset mpe jaman CD!! LOL … gila mannnnn … gw mesti ngefans mpe kapan coba? LOL … tp keknya seh udah kaga segila dulu … inget umur coi!! LOL … thn lalu kan si dani bikin band baru lage, THE ROCK!! wakakaka.. jelas gw jg ngefans!! vokalisnye sapeh dolo coba? wakakkakakaa.. asli kg beda jaoh!! well, tiap lagu2 dewa seh byk kenangan tersendiri bagi gue!! hahahaha … gw kaga tao deh kenangan gw itu apa … tapi di antara segala macem lagu dewa dr album 1 mpe skrg, gw punya tuh lagu favorit sepanjang masa. mpe skrg kl gw lage sarap ato ge hepi slalu dengerin ini lagu (masalah ini lagu gw tinggalin di melben, gw kg bawa pulang). jdnye ya terpaksa gw dengerin lagu2 the rock ajeh. gile mannn .. koleksian gw di melben semua. di kompie gw jg kaga ada!! waakkakakaa… ADA DEH beberapa .. TAPI … gw kurang demen ama si onceeeee!! my gosh!!! gw males bgt dah ama si once!! LOL .. mendingan gw dengerin suaranya si dani drpd once! mendingan ari lasso dah kemane2. jaoh abes dah tuh si once!! gara2 si once masuk keknya jalur musiknye beda abes boooooooooooo … ya udah ah .. gw keknya nulis genean gak penting bgt!! mabok … byk film2 bagus ne .. gw jd bingung ntn yg mane .. alhasil gw ntn semuanya!! waakkaaka…

THE FUNNIEST THING HAPPENED WHILE I WAS CHECKING MY OWN MYSPACE ACCOUNT JUST NOW. HAHAHAA… THE FCUKIN LOSER EX BOYFRIEND ALL OF SUDDEN SENT ME A MSG AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. TRUST ME, HE IS NO LONGER ON MA LIST FOR YEARS AND I HAD NO IDEA HE FCUKIN GET MY ACCOUNT ID. I ALSO HAD NO FCUKIN IDEA WHY HE CONTACTED ME AFTER THESE YEARS, SAYING THAT HE WAS WONDERING AROUND HOW I HAVE BEEN AND HE HAD A CURIOSITY OF HOW MY LIFE HAS BEEN DOING PLUS MY FOLKS, ETC AND AS IF I WANTED TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH HIM. WHAT DA FCUK MANNNNN??? I AINT GONNA KEEP IN TOUCH WIT DA FCUKIN POOFTA!!! HAHAHAHA… CMON ON MANNNNN … HE GOT HIS OWN LIFE AND I GOT MINE. SO, NO KEEPIN TOUCH WITH A LOSER WHO HAS BEEN A BASTARD!! LOL … THERE IS NO FCUKIN EXCUSE AND I AINT GONNA LISTEN TO WHOEVER COMPLAINS WHAT IM WRITING HERE THAT I GOTTA BE NICE AND BLAH BLAH BLAH COZ I ONLY KEEP IN TOUCH FOR THOSE NICE PEOPLE… HAHAHA WONDERING AROUND ABOUT ME AFTER ALL THESE YEARS? IN 2008? YOU GOTTA BE JOKING, MATE!! YOU HAD TO WONDER AND DID THAT BEFORE 2008 AND WHEN I WAS WITH YOU, DAMNIT!! OH YEAH, STILL CARING FOR MA FOLKS AFTER ALL THESE YEARS? HAHAHA… YOU HAD TO DO THAT WHEN YOU WERE WITH ME AS IF YOU STILL HAD YOUR FCUKIN BRAIN AND RESPECTED MA FOLKS AND WHAT THEYVE DONE TO YOU BY BEING SO NICE BUT SOMEONE PUT HIS SHIET MIND INTO HIS KNEE!! ALRIGHT, THATS IT!!! THATS ANOTHER FUNNY THING HAPPENED IN 2008 AND DONE BY THE LOSER EX BOYFRIEND!! THOSE PREVIOUS YEARS WERE THE SAME … TOLD YA … IF YOU CRASHED ME, I WOULD CRACKED N SNAPPED YOU WITH A BULLET TO YOUR ASS HEART TIL IT TURNS INTO BLACK AND BLEEDING THEN YOU WOULD REMEMBER HOW HURT IT WOULD BE, YOU WOULD REMEMBER ME WHO DID THAT TO SERVE YOU BACK FOR DA LAST TIME (SOMETHING TO REMEMBER ABOUT ME) AND YOU WOULD REMEMBER FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!! LOL … IT WOULD MORE PAIN IN THE ASS THAN HOW YOU HURT ME!! BWAKAKAKAKAKKAA … THAT FCUKIN JERK IS SO FCUKIN RIDICULOUS MAN!! OH THANK YOU … LORD SAVED ME! THANKED GOD … THANK YOU GOD FOR SAVING ME FOR THAT JERKIE IN THE PAST!!